The happiness I can't have

It's about how some people feel trapped in their own minds, in their own worlds.

It’s not just a feeling,

It’s an emotion,

A thought,

It floods my mind, like the darkness of clouds over ruling me.

It’s the constant feeling of emptiness and loneliness within me.

One minute I could have the light shining out of me with the biggest smile on my face.

The next minute I could be just staring blankly at the ceiling with tears streaming down my face.

 

I’ve seen this before,

I’ve been here before,

The storm is back,

Worse than ever.

I want to be free,

I want to be me,

I want the happiness everyone else has,

That I don’t…

Why do they get to be free from this god damn awful nightmare?

While I’m stuck, trapped inside my own mind…

It’s like a torture cell…

I can’t get out..