Not Paying Attention In Class...

Some stuff I wrote during class..

Advising Office:

-ncr grade

-stats or precalc?

-chem 100 or chem 102?

-4 year plan

-fin aid

-fencing

-6 classes next semester?

-major requirements

To Do:

*english research paper w/ annotated bibliography and works cited page

*register for more classes for next semester

*CLA-syllabus/read

*Bio-syllabus/read -> lab exam, lab presentations

*US - syllabus/paper due Dec 5

*Clean bag/desk/top of wardrobe + organize all papers!

*VPN for Laptop

PRAY.

WORK HARD.

LET GO.

CHANGE.

It's not fair that we only

get one chance in life...

and if we screw that up, well...

what the f**k is living worth?

College, religion, survival, success,

our own animalistic needs...

what the f**k

does it all mean?

What do I do?

God help me..

Our minds are so mercurial..

we inhabit so much duality within ourselves...

Well, WHO do we listen to, hope or the bloody truth?

What will it be like when I'm gone.

Who will miss me when I'm gone?

I want to be somebody. Without the pain.

I want to be loved. I want to be amazing.

I want to be strong. Without the pain.

Can I do this. Can I do this.

I don't know.

I'm sitting here as her

chalk draws another

example on the board,

the

minutes are

ticking by

and

my

tears

stain the

numbers on

the

page.

Author's Note

Some may think this is detrimental to my own health, others will say it is therapeutic. I think it is a mix of both and it is a necessary action for me to express my thoughts no matter how gloomy they may seem. Because I know. I know I will stand right back up again.