REQUEST FOR QUESTIONS

Thirty-one? 

Is it true you're sooner gone than ever!

 Did you think so?

 In many a ordeal with tearful dioptre 

Thou didst put the gauntlet down,

 but always with head held high,

 never giving up,

 Thou didst accept the challenge!

 What is the matter with you?!

 For so long have they been unable

 to reach you through the earth-embracing

 threads of the wide-contoured ether!

 Does it exist in the 21st century?

There is no bargain nor common

 understanding in the world of Tomorrow:

 else any one shall crush and torment me!

 I wonder if all you ever heard

 was the sincere, truthful, true word:

 "We'll look for each other after university!"

 - Your hopeful words still echo in my head.

 "You'll see!"

 - I was forced to close my eyes

 and keep our shared memories

 shining with an unbroken

 halo beneath the surface: 

I gave thee on all the more

 illustrious occasions,

 with everlasting good wishes

 - while thou knew'st all

 I knew'd where and when

 thou mightst o'er my way o'er reach,

 - and from thy surprising with

 I have long since dropped out!

 I only know that long years

 of fate's trials were for nothing! 

And when, like a frightened animal,

 Thou didst hope for my protection,

 For thou didst feel a thick

 pain in thy underbelly.

 When in hospital operating

 theatres you lay like a trophy

 tied between surgeons' butcher's knives,

 writhing in agony until

 your appendix was removed. 

Leech-worm swollen from your

 intestines' anal canal 

- did I complain or resent once? 

Amongst many anxiety-pretending,

 tannish frusks, I have carried,

 out of goodness, juice, 

chocolate biscuits, 

merely to smuggle back

 thy mischievous smile

 to the corner of thy clogged mouth! 

Why art thou not now by my side,

 as thou didst once promise?

 Could you at least,

 if your fate should so choose,

 send me a message?

 What bonds of friendship

 are so soon broken, so soon torn?

 And why do I cling to a chariot

 that will never take me,

 but will wipe me out and forget me?