Suicide or Murder???

The biggest disease known to mankind is loneliness....It kills...

                              

How are you dear? ...I'm great...
And that's it no one thinks about it any further.
No one sees the pain behind the mask

She is not fine, not even okay...
She is suffering...
She is frustrated...

Her life is half damaged
And half is on the way for ruin...

She is the murderer, & she is the victim
She is killing herself....

Is anybody there to feel her pain??
Can u hear me?
I'm your mind....

Counting her breathe, she takes the pills
Knowing she will be dead today or tomorrow..

She is addicted to drugs, she is spoiled..
And thus,.....she is avoided!!

But did anybody try to know the reason?
Why is she abnormal?
Why does she loves to stay alone?
Have you ever wondered?

Friends who can only betray
A family where she has no place to stay...
Just a girl whom everyone avoids...

What else can you expect from her?
This was meant to be like this, right??

This strange behavior definitely has a reason
This loneliness shouldn't be the topic of criticism...

she needs you, but you don't really care...
She shouts out loud, but you don't even stare...

Soon, she will be dead...
Maybe by hanging on the fan
Or by injecting a tough poison
Or maybe by jumping from the high
Or, drowning in the sea....

And then,
headlines in the newspaper with bold letters of another suicide case
She's dead, she's gone...

Maybe two or three teardrops from her mother's eyes,...
That's it, no one really cares..

Knowing her story, some becomes a bit sad
and the rest talks ill of her character....

They says, suicide is heinous....
But was it truly a suicide???
Or,............................

Author's Note

I just tried something new....i wrote a poem without rhyming for the first time... Hope you will like it.... Please review... :)

Reviews

[1Disawsum]

Wow... you write about it better than me. Yes, the reason for suicide may be a little bit more complicated than "she was lonely, depressed. She shot herself". She is the urderer, & she is the victim. True, put it in that way. She IS killing, hence a murderer, but she is killing HERSELF, the victim. Great poem, made me teary-eyed. xxx

[Tasfia Islam]

Ahh....thank you so much..... And you have your own pretty style.... Don't compare it with me.... :)

[1Disawsum]

haha thanks, but ... you're still better at conveying the emotion, the tone, the atmosphere. And you're great at explaining things, putting things in a different light. Loving your style, wish I had your skill too :D

[Tasfia Islam]

haha....I'm blushing now.... thank you... :)

[Benita-Staebell M - Kin..]

Depression or loneliness Is all from the Enemy the devil.



I've lost a cousin in law to suicide He shot himself in the head
he was only 21 or 22 years old
he had the love and care but he pushed them away
and drugs can cause it also from suicidal thoughts I never saw him
much but thanksgiving every year in October is the Anniversary of his
death.



When I was 16teen I lost my Great grandpa to suicide
and he shot himself in the head but I can't remember
if I was there but it plays In my head but God has helped me
with the pain so Suicide is nothing from god he's life love pure
love not hate loneliness the enemy will push us down say were
worthless no one cares we were a mistake.



And were not we are beautifully made
we are beautifully broken I am thankful
for God watching over me and not
giving into my pain and hurts as a child.


And Negative words are poison they're
death they kill the person inside and words
that are love that inspire they give joy life
they bring them back to life as fear also comes
from the Devil the enemy.




2Timothy1:7 For God hath not given
us the spirit of fear; but of Power, and of love, and of a sound mind.




Thank you for sharing this
Heart wrenching piece even though
it did touch some sensitive parts of
my heart strings as I don't usually read
pieces that speak of this because I end
up crying and thinking of those I've lost.



As far as suicide I cry because it being death
and not life as Jesus is we show we don't love
ourselves and I don't believe they go to a good place
that is why I cry and I feel it and know it in my soul.




But this piece can also mean someone
spiritually dying on the inside that's another
thing the devil will do with cruel words as
the world doesn't care but God does and he never fails
but putting our hopes in humans they will fail that
is apart of us but have you heard the ones
that love you the most will hurt you the most. :)


Psalms 51:17
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
A broken and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise.


Psalms34:18 The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart;
and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.



1Peter5:6 Humble yourselves
therefore under the mighty hand of God,
that he may exalt you in due time:


1peter5:7 Casting all your care upon him;
for he careth for you.

when we are weak God is strong
our weakness is gods strength and he will
give us his power.


we will fail but god won't fail
he's our strength.


when things are falling apart they're
falling into place each and ever puzzle piece.



God's Grace will always match
the burdens we have to carry
he helps us to get through and overcome them.


Jesus knows and feels our pain and God
knows our hearts better then anyone does
only he can hear the silent parts of the heart
so when I didn't hurt myself that was god My prayers
were tears of people calling me names and laughing at
me and throwing wood chips at me but it was stopped
and I gained friends learned what beauty was and the cruel
ones are not god nor do they have him in them but the ones
that show love he lives in them now if a loved one hurts you
and didn't mean it that is different there is some family members
that just don't care and have non of god in them or no love of him
they just have a ugly heart the Negative is the devil and some don't
even know they're doing it and could just be lost and don't know it
I am dealing with the same thing with my husband he is hopeless at
times and they devil sees me as a threat as I am praying for him fighting
for his soul gets ugly when that happens.




Hope you have a Blessed night.


God bless. Benita

[Tasfia Islam]

I really feel sorry for you...And I'm sorry to cause those tears in ur eyes.... I never thought that my poem will touch someone this way... I don't know if its a good thing or bad....Anyways, I am glad u liked it.... Thank you.... :)

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

don't feel bad it's ok pain helps us heal we have our bad days in good days :) I have had to learn to allow God pain and the ones that love me be like teachers I am a pretty sensitive Tender soul but underneath God helps me to be strong and that means a lot what said. and when I cry or hurt it means I still fee and I still love them tells me a am still Human and that love is there rather that then Hate or anger I guess. I hope you have a Blessed and Lovely Thanksgiving with your family from mine to yours :) Benita

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

And you're welcome any time. :)

[Tasfia Islam]

I must say.... U have wonderful thoughts.... God bless you... :)

[Laura Lynn]

this is really deep and complicated guys, we have to go through this and figure it out, it's horrible to be trying to figure out why everyone is trying to avoid you, it's sad when one person feels left out or broken, but it does happen to everyone, some things and people's behaviors do not make sense to us even our own bad habits to ourselves, this girl is really down that's all we can say, we can say that for sure

[Haley Wilson]

This is incredibly beautiful. Made my eyes a little watery even, haha. :)

[Tasfia Islam]

Aww... thank you... :)

[Gregory Stires]

This poem is really good. I like how there is a lot of truth to this since this happens a lot. And I like how the title is a question because the people who made her feel this way techincly killed her since if they didn't avoid her she wouldn't have caught the pain and suffering that being alone upon a person.

[Tasfia Islam]

yep, exactly... thank you... i'm glad u liked it ... :)

[Lyn Anderson]

A lot of good ideas in this piece and a lot of truth, although, having dealt with many people who kill themselves, the answers are never black and white. My only suggestion would be to reconsider the format, perhaps in block paragraph form.

[Tasfia Islam]

I got it.... :) I'm glad u liked it.... Thank you... :)

[Fariha Tahseen Karim]

it captured my interest till the end. God job. Nice piece of writing :)

[Tasfia Islam]

Thank you dear... :)

[Happy hours]

In this busy life...no one can even wonder what's really going on with our near ones or our loved one...they all are ok and fine always..and that is enough for us to know about them...heart touching poem...nicely penned :)

[Tasfia Islam]

Thank you... :)

[Eleanor]

I'm so against self-killing.
Still I like the way you expressed the pain and frustration. People tend to avoid someone in pain. If only they are noticed and helped maybe they can be saved. Loneliness alone is enough to destroy a person.
Life is a puzzle most of us fail to solve. But it's hope that gets us ahead. We don't need anyone. All we need is strength.
Nice job :)

[Tasfia Islam]

Thank you... :)

[Tasfia Islam]

and, it wasn't really a suicide or self killing....its a murder....that's what I told in the poem...

[KWP]

please forgive me - I don't like suicide poems - I understand that suicide is a big problem for young people, but I don't think we should try and glorify it in anyway ...

oh and being a 'glass half full' girl I cannot relate at all - sorry x

[Tasfia Islam]

Yeah, I understand.... Its fine....Its not that everyone will have the same sort of mentality....No harm in being different....Thank you for reviewing.... :)

[KWP]

I look forward to reading some other works of yours xxxx

[Tasfia Islam]

I'm glad.... thank you... :)

[Valkyrie Warrior]

This is such a good poem! I felt exactly like this when I was depressed

[Tasfia Islam]

Thanks.....I'm glad you liked it... :)

[Valkyrie Warrior]

Your welcome