Chapter 1

It was a moment of sudden awareness. Everything was clear but at the same time confusing. It felt right to be sitting on bed with the boy I basically had grown up with, sitting there locked in eye contact about to have our first kiss. I had dreamed of that moment since we were twelve years old and now, at fifth-teen, there we sat. The deep blue oceans inside his head stared at me with such intensity I could feel myself shaking. I chickened out and kissed him on the cheek. I thought it was over but he leaned closer and whispered, “Do something else.” in a breathy voice. I leaned in and kissed his other cheek. I sat back and felt my nerves calm but he leaned closer, following me as I my back got closer to the bed “Do something else.” he whispered again, with a hint of demand. I still couldn’t force myself to kiss his lips so I leaned up and kissed his nose. I leaned all the way back and lied on my bed. He followed me and was hovering over me, his nose an inch from mine, “Do something else.”  I opened my mouth to say I was nervous when he pushed his mouth to mine. It was my first kiss ever and from that moment on I would be in love with him, I would need him, I would want him. It was what I wanted for two years but if I had known what that kiss would bring in the next three years……. I swear to God I would have shoved him off me and left. But I didn’t because I didn’t know. So I did the only thing I knew�"I kept kissing the boy next door.

The kiss lasted for five minutes, our mouths slowly exploring each other, and it wasn’t until my mom called for us from the living room that we stopped and looked each other in the eyes. I’m pretty sure my eyes said “Oh my f*****g god I can’t believe this is happening” but he never said what was in them. His eyes said nothing. The always said nothing, even when he was smiling (which he was). It wasn’t a happy smile but the sort of cocky smile that goofy teenage boys get when they know they got what they wanted. I opened my mouth and said, “Uh, we better go see what she wants?” it sounded more like a question than a statement.

“Okay.” He said slowly as he srose up and followed me through the door and down the hallway.

“Jared, your mom called. She wants you come home so you can go to the store with her.” Mom said as she tossed around things in the kitchen.

“Okay, Kim.” He said to her, “I’ll see you later, Tanisha.” He smiled that cocky smile and left. I walked into the living room and sat on the couch. I was still shaking.

“So what’s going on?” Mom asked in a nonchalant tone.

“Nothing, we just watched stupid YouTube videos he thought were funny. I didn’t much care for them.”

I sat there and thought about the whole thing. I knew I shouldn’t have lied to mom but I had too. She didn’t like Jared and would not be happy hearing about our kiss. I sat there wishing that this was a real thing and that we would actually be together.

Boy I was so naïve.

Author's Note

This was published before on here but I accidently out it under "story instead of "Book" so here it is again with the second part coming with it. Sorry for the inconvenience