I am worthless

Just a poem I wrote

 

Father I love you

Mother I love you

Sister I love you

 

But I hate you all

I hate my life

I hate everything!

 

But you will never know

You will never understand

You never try

 

I cry out for help

You ignore it!

I am invisible

 

Its all about her

She is special

I am nothing!

 

I never matter!

I never will!

Not to you…

 

Why cant you love me?

Why cant you help me?

Why cant you be loving parents?

 

I try

I try to be perfect

I do!

 

But you ignore it!

You ignore me!

Am I really worth that little!

 

I try to tell myself I'm not

I try to tell myself that if alright

But I lie to myself!

 

When I use that blade

When I see that blood

All I can think is I am nothing

 

Its all your fault

You never cared

You never thought

 

I'm sorry I'm a disappointment

I'm sorry I'm so worthless

I'm sorry I am nothing

 

Ill just go die now

It will be better

Better than to live without your love

 

Better to die than to live

Better to escape this hell

I would prefer the flaming pits to this

 

You have killed my heart

You have destroyed my mind

All I have left is my empty body

 

Just use that to

Throw it away

Like its worth nothing

 

I am worth nothing!

A waste of space

Polluting the air

 

Just kill me now!

Please!!

I want to die!!!!!!!!

Author's Note

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Reviews

[omeridian]

this is yours?

[Shy Girl]

You feel your being passed over by another better sibling? Hmm...I had the second child sydrome growing up..still do at times. Living in the shadow of a better person it seemed to me. When in actuality we were just different and good at different things. I used to feel like I was a waste of space and not worth that much as a person (when you get down to it) but I found that I was only hurting me. The one that you feel is better than you is just different. (anger can cloud the mind I've found) Murky grey area that well is...but I like the passion you wrote with and it built as I read onward down the page. The focus stayed the same and your message was crystal clear. But here's a tip...don't hate to strongly because you may miss out on the good parts of yourself in the process.. :) (lesson I learned many times ;)

[Kenneth The Poet]

And the jerk subjects probably have their headphones in listening to Dr. Phil wax poetic about playing golf. I like this one.

[Raven Starhawk]

I use writing to exorcise some demons. This is great because it marks a great amount of pain. I can read it with every word and feel it so deeply so. I can honestly say I have felt this way and perhaps still do from time to time.

[patricia]

writing is great therapy for getting things off your chest, this was well penned and very emotional. I always felt like an invisible child, I can relate to a lot of this, thankyou.