I Miss You

meant to be kind of like a spoken word poem

Kill me with your words

Like daggers plucking at the strings of my heart

 

Pierce me with your gaze

So that I may bleed all of the things I left unspoken

 

Gouge out my eyes

So that I may never see the person who used me and threw me away like I was nothing

 

The one who cut me open just so that he could peel back the layers enough to reach in and slice into an organ that I could have sworn was turned to stone

 

Break me until I am too far broken to even try to put myself back together

 

Make me wish that this heart and this body had never known what your touch felt like

That I had never known what the feel of you felt like or the touch of your skin, your lips pressed firmly against mine

 

Make me wish that I had never known any bit or part of you so that maybe I could actually sleep at night

 

Rip your very existance from my flesh in hope that maybe just maybe one day I might forget you

 

Forget about the sound ouf your voice in my ears

or the smell of you on my clothing

 

Forget about every little detail that draws me to you

That makes me beg and plead for your embrace

 

Rip your presence from my soul and extinguish any light that may remain

 

I have lost myself to you and I can only pray that these memories will go away

 

These memories

These dreams

That haunt me in the night

That hurt me and wake me

Only so that I can realize just how alone I am agian

 

Leave me broken and shattered

 

Giving me more than a hundred thousand reasons to hate you

but still not being able to when I see you

 

Not able to forget the way you made me feel

The way you would hold me in your arms and whisper sweet nothings into my ear

 

Soon I'm going to realize just how stupid I was to trust you

 

How pitiful I was to believe the air that flowed from your lungs and slipped past your tainted lips spilling lies upon lies of what you thought I just wanted to hear

 

One day I'm going to wake up from this nightmare of missing you to realize that I don't need you

 

One day I'm going to but right now I'll just keep you here

Trapped in the memories of what we once were and what I wanted us to be.

Trapped in between the pages of my past

 

I'm holding onto nothing I know this

but I miss that smile

I miss holding onto your hand

Feeling you next to me

I miss the safety of your presence

and How I used to laugh when I was with you

I miss the pause you would take after we kissed

I miss you resting your forehead against mine

I miss the way you would look at me when you thought I couldn't see

I miss the little things that you would do

I miss you

But missing you, is what is killing me...

Author's Note

Meant to be kind of like a spoken word poem

Reviews

[Giggling Star]

It is a good read. All those little nuances that are so desperately missed. Good writing.