Glitter

I do not love you

You should know this by now

You send me lyrics to songs

You think I don't know the words to

But I do

I've known for quite some time

Your good mornings and good evenings

Litter my phone

The way glitter or sand

Gets between spaces on the floor

Even after you've cleaned it up

No matter how much washing

Or sweeping

Or sucking

Or burning

I do, you're still there

I do not want you there

You are a secret I kept to myself

When you no longer wanted

To be the shameful walk home

I shared you with her

I wiped you clean out of my hands

Into her ready plate

She was supposed to save you

For a moment you let her

You chose her to take home

But you asked me to the dance after

And yet like glitter or sand

I still find flecks or grains 

Still stuck in my hair

I do not love you

Not because you're not wonderful

and sweet

and thoughtful

and amazing

Because you are

You are the childhood memories

Of macaroni sculptures

And homemade birthday cards

You are the warmth between toes

From watching

Perfect sunrise and sunsets

No, I do not love you

Because I can't

Please stop asking her

How my heart is

Because it's doing fine