Fester

Distant am I.

To run from what is good

For fear that it is bad

Is all that I can do.

Here, hurting myself

So that I do not hurt.

Killing myself

So that I do not kill.

Festering heart,

This infection spreads out;

Out through my tongue,

Out through my eyes.

Out into you.

Reviews

[Davidgeo]

I like how you closed with "out into you"

I like "hurting myself / so that i do not hurt you"

This is good writing. You express yourself well. A bit dark but, if we look inside I think we're all something similar. The light is something we work from the dark toward. If were honest with ourselves anyway.

[Re-Pete]

honest and well expressed. very deep. nice job ... :)

[UnholyFate]

Thank you 🖤

[Ballpark Frank]

Whew!! Very intense. I like it.

[UnholyFate]

Thank you kindly

[Ballpark Frank]

You are unique in your writes.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

and some say we are afraid to go after our dreams with the fear we will fail, but it may be that we are afraid to go after our dreams for fear we will succeed.
Yes, a great close to this, I agree with the other reviewer.
Endings need to be powerful to bring closure with a bang...you do that.
j.

[UnholyFate]

Thank you, that is motivating for me 🖤

[Chris]

You've been away... welcome back.

I look forward to your fresh thoughts being shared.

Sometimes we ALL need that another reaches beyond their self so that WE can begin to breathe again

[Alessander]

This very much feels like a Plathian sad soliloquy.

It has clever turn of phrases - hurting to not hurt - killing to not kill

But what's ironic is that the narrator is not hurting or killing others, only him/herself. So in some ways it is hurting and killing, but perhaps not external flesh, but internal soul.

Love the way it ends too.

Festering through tongue/eyes

Reminds me of that old biblical passage, if your eye is causing you to sin, cast it out, if your hand is causing you to stray from the light, cut it off - for it is better to be eyeless and handless than to dwell eternally in hell...

I'm not interpreting this Biblically, but psychologically, it seems relevant as our own eyes, hands, heart can indeed turn against us and put us in a hell.

Anyhow, that's just my rambling take.

Needless to say, enjoyed it very much.

[Relic]

I suppose when you're unhappy with yourself or your circumstances it can affect not only you but others too.