i am out of my mind

if I can publish this I can walk through fire and it will make accomplishing ten years old me's goals more possible.

I was reading through an old dairy of mine and 10 year old me had more sass on her little finger that anybody I can tell you that. But anyway in the dairy 10 year old me wrote a list of things she wanted to do before she turned 16 right
the list goes:
-paint my face blue
-discover a new shade of pink
-become a professional gum chewer
-be more sociable
-say the alphabet as word
-grow wings
-marry John Travolta
the list goes on with more ten year old dreams. but the one that got to me the forth one , I realized that as I grew older I became probably the most socialy awkward person in the world, and even though I have met lots of wonderful people from the ncs program even in school I never bothered to get involved with everyone.I thought about how 10 old me is probably disappointed the thought broke my heart. so my mission from today on 19nd March or the day I finally get the confidence to do something I would never do in a million years. I am gonna try and become more sociable I am going to talk to people out of my cormfort zone, say hi to new people I don't know.