God Wavered

With her head hung

 she spoke:

 

Heavy are my eyes today,

 Father

for I know not how to rise

merrily with the pain I laid with

Though I would have given

 of myself freely

Prepared before was I against

this transgression I harbor

Must one hear "Yes" always

 in order to go through with something?

Or can one be of silence

or non-responsive and

 still mean "No?"

But I didn't say "Yes"

And now this fruit bears unwantedly

 inside mine

Yes, unwanted

in a certain amount of time

a decision must be made

I wish I could have said "Yes" so that

 this day would never have come

Please do not look pitifully down on me

 as if this was your gift to me

In no way would I

 nor could I revere you in such a hostile

 way

Your protection for me wavered

As I can now never lay with another

without both eyes remaining open

I did not say "Yes"

So before I begin to glow

Please let Heaven know

of the secret that I must hide

Between you and me

I will create a new reality

As I died along with what's inside

Reviews

[Helen Woodward]

A lesson learned, but a sad end...compellingly real TT.
Congrats!