I Was Tempted

 

I was tempted

I was tempted

 to keep going

To continue giving of myself

 until I forgot who I was

 And I was the best I could be for them

 And they threw me peanuts

 and I thrived

I survived in their eyes as I continued

 to walk in their paths everyday

 knowing that I was not wanted

 hearing that I was not needed

 until I was tempted

I was tempted

 to continue giving of myself and not

 loving myself for someone who did not

 mind throwing me peanuts still in their shell

 

They got it all

and wanted all of me

 

And weariness set in

doubt followed

Voices and then pain

And I was tempted

 but I did not give in anymore

 

When the elephant food stopped coming

and the written praises ceased being chased

 I asked and I prayed for forgiveness

Forgiveness for not loving me enough

And I prayed that the right choice was made

And I prayed to be better

 and to know when to stop

And to love myself as what I was caught up in before

 And I prayed to know when it was actually God

 doing all these things in me

 

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