That Girl

A Poem by GummyBear

I wrote this based off of a story my friend told me about her past.

hate her.

I'm silently wishing.
All this hurt away.
Like my tears will cleanse the bad mudslide.
That is you.
I'm disappearing, and becoming something so different.
I'm becoming that girl you never knew.
The girl you thought could never turn out this way.
But that child flew away.
She's not coming back.
And she blames you.
You made her give up all of the niaveties of youth.
You taught her the truth, before she could even fathom fiction.
She became this.
You molded her into this.
She became this.
Freak.
Self-hating.
Mongrel.
She doesn't blame anyone.
Except for you.
The girl she used to be glued to.
The one who's fate she killed.
The day the child swallowed the pills, and became the woman that you hate.
All the dreams disappeared.
The night she died.
Men in white gloves and cold masks.
Made her dead heart beat again.
And now who am I?
I'm nothing but a shell of who I used to think I used to be.
But I don't know her.
I don't want to know her.
I hate her.
The same way she hates me.