Limits

I cannot pretend any longer.
Forced smiles and fake laughs
Are for show.
I want to elucidate you.
I need you to see that I can go on.
And I have tried over and over again.
I cannot pretend any longer.

These games you play
Are heart-wrenching
If you miss me,
Love me,
Want me,
Then why must you pretend
That you don’t need me?

I am not going to stand aside,
Watching your life go on
On a day to day basis,
Without me.
Because you will see
That you need me.
You are making a terrible mistake.

It is so unfair to me
Because you know
That I will be waiting
However long it be,
For you to come back,
To me.
You are taking advantage.

And when the next gentleman comes along
The same pattern will fall into place.
Tell him what you told me.
Tell him you never really loved me,
That you could care less
About me.
Tell him you are ready to move on.

Lie to him like you lied to me.
Fall thrice in love.
Because guess what?
I hate to say it, but
Three strikes, you’re out.
You fucked yourself over
Just like you fucked me.

All I ever did was love,
But things for you were tough,
So you fled.
The devotion was unbreakable,
The potency was so strong,
But the love was so wrong,
For these games I can play no longer.