Our Island.

About my boyfriend James. 6/22/2015.

I certainly never saw this coming,
and neither, do I think, did you. 
But with every moment spent with you,
I find myself falling farther for you.

The beautiful blue eyes;
the long, unkempt hair;
the slim but strong body --
you find me in my dreams;
you chase away the demons that have haunted me since I was just a small child.

Sometimes I feel like I've left behind all desire to see others.
I'd rather stay wrapped in your arms,
a few clouds of smoke surrounding us on this bed
that feels like an island.

Reviews

[I Am Svetlana]

After reading this, beds do remind me just of an island...a place that belongs to just the two of you to share memories and moments of love. So wonderful. I loved this...

[Emily Irene.]

It was the only way I could think of it when I realized we'd been laying on this queen-size mattress for as many hours as I could remember. Another note: the reason I say that I "never saw this coming" and neither did he was because my boyfriend and I were friends for three years before we expressed the idea that something more could be there. In fact, when my ex would upset me or I was overdue for a break from him (we were together 24/7), I'd go to my now-boyfriend's house to hang out with a friend and drink.

Thank you for your comment, I loved it. :] Because you're right, it belongs to just the two of you because the things shared while laying in that bed cannot be replicated, cloned or anything. You cannot even recreate them. Its like telling one of those "you had to be there" jokes - you could never tell some other third person about it and have them know how you felt and feel.

[I Am Svetlana]

Well, exes are exes for a reason, you know. All my exes were s**t people. They all just used me for sex. Anyway, they shouldn't matter. I never imagined being in a relationship with the guy I'm with now...I thought we would just be friends when we first hung out, but every day he would call me just to say hi and see how my day was going...something no one else has done for me. I remember when he gave me my first rose...it was so different and it made me see him differently and knew it was something I should go after. We've now been together for 9 months and it's the best thing I've ever had.

Most days, we just lay in his bed during the day or just sleep in most of the day. He cuddles with me or just sleeps next to me if its too hot. I always sleep better when he's next to me as opposed to when I'm sleeping in my own bed by myself at home. It always feels like something is missing when I don't feel his presence next to me.

[Emily Irene.]

While from most of my experience, you're right in saying ex's are s**t people, my last boyfriend wasn't a terrible person, just really in need of some psychiatric/psychological help. He also couldn't see the end of my tunnel, the chronic pain I was experiencing but that which I was on my way to getting surgery to relieve me of. He had Asperger's and was later diagnosed as bipolar. I'm bipolar and suffer from intense anxiety at times and I'm medicated, but my ex fought medication and didn't seem to take therapy too seriously either. It made me mad that after he broke up with me over Skype when he was visiting California where he's from, he did seek help. I don't know if I helped make him realize he needed more people on board but I hope so. I'm kinda surprised I can be so nice talking about him at all because we recently deleted each other off Facebook, the only place we tried to stay friendly, because he couldn't be happy for me in my new relationship - he was so depressed that I don't think he wanted to necessarily get back with me (although he oftentimes said he wished he could) but he needed SOMEONE. So when I tried to talk about doing something fun with my boyfriend, the ex just lost it. We ended up getting meaner and meaner and saying s**t we'd been wanting to say the whole time we'd known each other. It was when he called me a "f*****g c**t" that I left with one last parting blow, then blocked him. He seems to have deleted me off Skype but something won't let me delete his phone number; even though I have no real desire to speak to him again after an insult like that and his ridiculous attitude, he was the guy I thought I was going to marry. We shared almost two years worth of moments together and then he's totally gone like that.

I always sleep better when someone's with me - my mom when I was younger, my friends spending the night, my boyfriend. I suffer from nightmares most nights - people make fun of the sounds and movements I make in my sleep but even the nights I don't remember, I'd bet I had a nightmare. But when I sleep by somebody I know loves me and I love, the percentage of nightmares go down and it even helps me get more into my lucid dreaming I've been practicing and getting better at.

[I Am Svetlana]

My mom doesn't believe me when I tell her I don't like sleeping alone. I told my little sister (who's 5) that I can't sleep some nights cause she asked me why I stay up late and why I'm so tired during the day. I told her I don't sleep well when I'm alone and that I don't like sleeping alone, she told my mom and my mom got upset with me. Deep down, it's true though. I don't like waking up and having no one next to me...if they sleep next to me when I go to sleep, I don't like waking up alone. Especailly when I'm drunk. Haha. Anyways, when my boyfriend goes to bed with me, he's with me the whole time...from when we go to sleep to when we wake up. Which is really helpful. I have nightmares sometimes, but I don't tell him about them. His older brother wanted me for awhile and he has hit on me and stuff and I've had a few nightmares of him raping me, but I never told my boyfriend about them. I told him his brother was hiting on me and stuff and he told him to back off, but we all get along now. Normally they get along, but when it comes to girls, they get...territorial. My boyfriend always feels like I'll cheat on since he's cheated on me a few times within the few months we were together. He gets upset when I talk to other guys. The beginning of this week, I told him one of my co-workers liked me, though I didn't tell him I had a boyfriend because it never came up in a conversation. My boyfriend was upset about that and he felt I was going to leave him. I told him that it's not a crime for other people to like me, but I told my co-worker that I had a boyfriend and we left it alone.

[Emily Irene.]

Ugh, sounds like a mess sometimes. I totally understand not wanting to sleep alone. I don't understand people that actually sleep better alone. I don't care if my boyfriend slowly inches so close to me that I feel my a*s falling off the side of the bed. I just need him here. I'd rather not sleep nights he chooses not to be here or can't be here than deal with sleeping alone.

[SleeplessVolcano]

Beautiful writing! You expressed love in such a simple way! I have to think about a new title now....I just a poem with the same name....;)

[Emily Irene.]

Aww don't change your title! Its okay for it to have the same title. I have trouble with titles myself, this one just came out pretty easily.