Whiskers v2.0

About my dad, obviously.

There’s more whiskers on your face,
more gray hair on your head.
I search for you in familiar places,
see your face camouflaged in with the smiles & frowns
of all the little people
going about their business,
oblivious to my pain.

And all I see
is you disguised
in what I see
as every olive-skinned,
brown-eyed
fatherly fake.

How do you even do it?
“It takes a real special kind of a*****e to abandon a kid,”
a wise man once said
and I couldn’t disagree
when I’m crying so hard
I can barely see.

Reviews

[Dr. Wood ?]

this is excellent....acidity and sadness combined

[Emily Irene.]

Thank you very much. It tends to be that way when we have someone ripped from our lives, doesn't it? Part of you wants to rush them back into your life while the other part wants to hurt them in a a way they have no idea they've hurt you.

[Dr. Wood ?]

I understand the frustration....Death can leave behind so many different kinds of pain

[Emily Irene.]

Actually I should clarify that my father's still alive. He just doesn't want to speak to me, refuses to communicate with me and thinks his life is better off without me in it. But its very similar to death, because if it were not for the whispers of other people and an outgoing voicemail recording, I wouldn't think he existed. I haven't seen him in person in years. I haven't spoken to him in years. Its as if he's dead. So the same kinds of pain and emotions come up: resentment, bargaining, etc.

[Dr. Wood ?]

I still understand..My wife suffers the same with her son from her first marriage

[Emily Irene.]

Its a painful thing. To know someone lives day to day, knows you're suffering for them, but doesn't reach out.

[Friday]

Very moving piece. Some things can't be taken for granted, like family; unfortunately so.

[Emily Irene.]

Thank you. Family is important to me but it hasn't always been to my family members.