Just venting again...

Just venting again...

A Poem by Javan
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So, I started writing again... Still can't write anything happy though...

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I’m not this way on purpose, 
I swear I tried to let you in, 
But I picked anger over sadness, 
I swear that s**t’s my biggest sin.

'Cause if you make me angry,
I’ll destroy you,
I shed a tear,
it’s like you win.

And I don’t lose,
balled fist,
short fuse.
I even lashed out at my kin,
cause I can’t control this demon, 
I’ve tried every-f*****g-thing

So I’m counting the hours and the minutes,
I’ll just sit back and just watch.
I’ll wait ‘till the second I explode,
and take out everything that’s close enough to touch

So if I keep you out of arms reach,
It’s only cause I care.
I’m not scared of self-destruction,
It’s hurting others that I fear…

© 2015 Javan


Author's Note

Javan
Just something else I wrote to vent. Any feedback and/or constructive criticism is welcome, but I'm not trying to win any competitions here.
This is just an outlet for me.

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I like this. Has an underline to it as to say that others misunderstand your feelings while you battle with them

Posted 9 Years Ago


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Added on January 22, 2015
Last Updated on January 22, 2015
Tags: anger, self-destruct, fury, rage, sadness

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Javan
Javan

London, Croydon, United Kingdom



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Just another 32 year old with an over-active imagination and a half-decent vocabulary. I started writing just to help me get things off of my chest and out of my mind. It's an escape for me. Been.. more..

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