This I Believe

This I Believe

A Story by Sydney Fredrick

The door slams. I fall onto the wooden bench slamming my elbows down on the piano. It replies with a scream of jumbled noise. I run my fingers through my hair grabbing handfuls. Just trying to keep myself from crying out. Tears streaming down my cheeks onto the black and white keys. I stare down at them through blurred vision. I press my second finger on middle C.
White. Then Black. Then White again. Black. White White. Black White Black White Black White.
C again.
Deep breath.
I look up at the pages in front if me. I don't care what it is or where it starts. I play the first note I see. Right hand melody. Then left hand chords.
Lichner. Of course.
My vision clears as I concentrate on the page in front of me. I lean my body into the keys. I feel the music. I stop thinking. I don't feel anything but the music. My mind goes blank. I just play. Reality is lost. There is nothing but me and the black and white keys.
Just two short years ago, my best friend was taken from me. I have never been able to fully recover and I feel I never will. At times when I am completely...Lost...Alone...At times when all I want to do is SCREAM. Throw things. Rip out all my hair. Cry out all my tears. I feel him. He knew me like no other. He knew I needed to let my hands run across the keys. Let the music take me away from reality. And when I play, I feel him with me. And it all goes away.
This music is what will get me through.
Music brings him back to me.
That is what I believe.

© 2016 Sydney Fredrick


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Nice! My house is filled with music, and we all play, my husband is a professional musician and I know the love of music is a language all on it's own. It is a fantastic piece and I was taken on this sad but joyous journey while I read it. Sydney you have talent. Just a small typo: "Just two shirt years ago" it is probably short. Take care :)

Posted 8 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Sydney Fredrick

8 Years Ago

Thank you so much for your encouraging reviews!

Music has definitely always been a p.. read more



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I love the way u say 'He knew me like no other' and 'music brings him back to me'.It explain how close he was and how your heart tries to search him through little things!loved it :)!

Posted 7 Years Ago


Great! I love the first part of this. I totally agree with the idea of losing yourself in music. I had an interesting conversation with a psychiatrist. When I said that I ran he said that's a great way to destress! 'No' - I replied - 'I think when I run. When I really relax is when i'm playing my sax!

Posted 8 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Sydney Fredrick

8 Years Ago

Music really is a cure all. ;)

Thank you!
I smile because I understand this, No I cant play but I know what it is like to feel the music so much that it takes over sweeping one away:) It's beautiful the most magical thing can happen, and the hard words of a friend that is gone I can understand that part as well. This was a very beautiful write :)

Posted 8 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Sydney Fredrick

8 Years Ago

Thank you!
It is a great feeling to know I am not alone in this world. That everyone feels p.. read more
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8 Years Ago

Yeah your not alone:) Your very welcome:)
This is absolutely beautiful, I love it

Posted 8 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Sydney Fredrick

8 Years Ago

Thank you! :)
I'm glad you like it.
Very good descriptions! I love this. Keep up the great work. :)

Posted 8 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Sydney Fredrick

8 Years Ago

Thank you for the support! It means so much! :)
So.
First review here. Hopefully I'm doing things right.

This story is meant to be sad, but I can't find myself feeling it.
I can feel despair, I can feel frustration, the words really come to life. I feel anger.

But somehow I cannot feel the grief. Is that on purpose? Is the way the character, or yourself is mourning, is an angsty, angry and frustrated way..?

Purposeful or not, this was a good read. Keep up the good work.

Posted 8 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Sydney Fredrick

8 Years Ago

It is actually very funny to me that you asked that question because I did have a very hard time wit.. read more
LastMonth

8 Years Ago

No problem. That was my first review in this site, (Posted about 5 since,) But again I say I like it.. read more
Nice! My house is filled with music, and we all play, my husband is a professional musician and I know the love of music is a language all on it's own. It is a fantastic piece and I was taken on this sad but joyous journey while I read it. Sydney you have talent. Just a small typo: "Just two shirt years ago" it is probably short. Take care :)

Posted 8 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Sydney Fredrick

8 Years Ago

Thank you so much for your encouraging reviews!

Music has definitely always been a p.. read more

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