Violent silence

In a world full of chaos
I'm just craving silence
Silence from the chaos
Coming out of violence
Feel it rip you open
Feel it shut you down
Feel it build your spirit
Just to break it down
Full of fleeting moments
Tastes of glory, pain of loss
Seeking instant satisfaction
No matter what it costs
Nothing really matters
Nothing stays the same
In a world full of chaos
That will never change

So Damn temperamental
These reactions without thought
So Damn detrimental
The cycle in which I'm caught
Seeking silence out of violence
All the self inflicted wounds
Seeking freedom from the chaos
Seeking solace in a tomb

This apathy it sickens me this futile desperation its as though the grief that's stricken me has led me to damnation
I'm paralyzed with sickness
I'm lashing out in hate
My eyes won't see forgiveness
My mind says it's too late
How long will I stay in this before I seal my fate?
And How long can I keep dying before Im at the cemetery gates?

In a world full of chaos
I'm just craving silence
But Silence from the chaos
Only comes to me with violence.....