Why do I keep falling for him?

Why do I keep lying to myself
He really doesn't love me his eyes tells

Keep waiting for him to come back
Even though I'm alive he has my heart hijacked

Why do I keep falling for him
Losing myself in his awkward grin

I still remember the times he was so good to me
Maybe It was just a mask his real face I couldn't see

Never knew I could be this miserable
Thinking about losing him makes me tremble

He came in my life like a gentle breeze
Talking to him put my mind at ease
In my life he was like a melody
But now it's so dark wish I could delete him from my memory

It's been months I still miss the old him
Thoughts about him are both sad and comforting

I tried and tried my best to keep in touch
But he simply didn't budge

He stayed firm like a stone
I was never ever important to him should accept it and move on

It feels like I'm in a dark place and there is no one
Will never get emotionally attached to someone