Unwell

I navigate by stars.

The highs that take me out of this world.

my compass is flawed,

so I turn the volume down on my brain

& the lows that crash over me.

I am unwell.

This is what illness is.

This is what this illness does

& I'm buzzing, buzzing, buzzing

to withstand the emotional hangover.

Until I am numb to the words,

& entirely numb to the feeling,

actively work to rewire my brain. 

Reviews

[Davidgeo]

Dopamine is what 'wires' your brain. Find functional ways to get your brain to release dopamine. Eventually this will rewire your brain. Then you won't have mental illness anymore!! (it might be true what I just said, but I'm not being serious... i'm mentally ill as well, it's not so easy... that's why it's called a disorder or illness). Rock music helps me rewire my brain... even at my age it's still possible, it's still plastic enough. Tool (the band) is good for crazy people. Picking up an instrument is also helpful. Learning how to play the violin poorly was actually extremely helpful for me. The process is helpful, and you can mentally use music in a different way after that to internally deal with being a crazy person.