How do you feel when you love someone who does not love you back?

This is the first of my writing prompt series. I hope you enjoy :)

As midnight passed me by a few times already, I had been awake. I had looked at the clock hanging on my bedroom wall and because I saw the time changing in front of me, I knew I was awake. It had hurt to be, It had hurt to be awake and I remembered it did. My life did not wait for me. Nobody waited for me. I lie awake staring at my ceiling in true curiosity as to why he could not love me back.
All I heard was the ticking of my clock and the slow beats of my heart beat. As I held my breath and blocked out the noise my clock was making I caught myself waiting for my heart to stop too. As I imagined it would go slower and slower and that at some point it would stop. Because the one my heart was beating for, didn’t have his heart beating for me. I wasn’t the thing on his mind, as he was the thing on mine. He was probably sound asleep as I was right here, with a secret wish to die. I felt stupid, dumb and irrelevant. How could I have ever believed that someone like him could love someone like me? When I only heard a fading beat every once in a while I couldn’t stop the smile creeping onto my face. The illusion of death felt really good right now. The illusion of my heart stopping. I didn’t matter to him and I would never matter to anyone. I would never leave this house again. I would never leave this bed again. Maybe then he would know loss. Maybe then I would be happy. Maybe in heaven the have someone to love me. With my eyes wide open I was faced with utter and complete silence. No breaths, no clock, no heartbeat. And I was at peace.

Author's Note

Please let me know where to improve and what to change! Also tell me if you liked something about it :)

Reviews

[Karen Redburn]

Good story on love and loss. If I can make some suggestions here they are:

Cut down on the use of " and My" Here's an example:
I had looked at the clock hanging on my(the) bedroom wall and(remove because I) because I saw the time changing in front of me,

Also don't capitalize words after comma's.

Breaking out the piece in a few more paragraphs would help readability also.

This is a good descriptive piece, just massage it a little and it will be an easy and more enjoyable read. At least that's my opinion this is your piece so take or leave the advice. Cheers my friend!