Repress and Fade

A poem I wrote 10 years ago when I was going through a rough time.

I've got so much sadness inside me
Oh God just please let it breathe
If I can't cry I'll feed tears to nothingness
To the void of sorrow in me

They take and they take things away
Though I'm fighting to stay in one piece
But the voice in my head's getting louder
So I can't seem to get too much sleep

This pen flowing fast is my savior
Ink spilling on paper like blood
These dark thoughts I harbor inside me
Are getting darker than I know they should

My feelings are hidden under years of fog
And I don't know if they'll com back
These things that I'm wishing will break me apart
Until every inch of my heart turns black

But it doesn't beat much anymore it seems
Giving in to my pleading voice
My heart is on empty and I'm all alone
And I don't want to give myself choice

So I'll sit here until my heart burns away
Until all that I am is lost
My fear to be fading is fading away
I already was a ghost

A.Wynter

Author's Note

Ignore choppy structure and some rhyme schemes.

Reviews

[JC]

Didn't feel choppy to me at all, flowed nicely with an intensity and darkness, ferocious feeling that reminded me of Baudelaire, how you are tragic but fighting at the same time, as in these lines: This pen flowing fast is my savior
Ink spilling on paper like blood

great words...

[Audrey Wynters]

I am very appreciative of your feedback, thank you. The line you quoted is my favorite part.

[Amesie]

I love those words too. Nice poem