Damn It

 

What is wrong

With me?

I just…

My mind is

Elsewhere

Very

Elsewhere

Always

Gone just when

I need it

I guess…

I…

Damn it.

I didn’t mean to

Or

I did

But the outcome…

I’m a mess.

Please mess with me

I need

A distraction.

Wait.

No.

Distraction…?

No.

Well…

My head is

So messed

Ever since

The

Big Bang.

Little and innocent.

Innocence…

Angelic…

Damn it.

It’s gone

It’s all gone

Want

Or

Need it

Back.

Please.

Oh God

I’m falling apart

Please.

Oh please.

Sleep…

What is

Sleep?

What is

Dreaming?

What is life

Before?

This is not

The path I want.

This is not

The path I need.

But it is

The path I chose

But I want to

Get off

Now.

Take a shortcut

Somewhere else

Back…

Back…

So far back

In the wood

Back to where

The sun

Shines on the

Glistening path

The path I wandered

Away from

(Due to

Regularity)

But it is the path

I want.

The path of…

Purity?

I need a game

To play.

Oh God

Am I too far gone?

Please…

Please…

My head

Is wrapped around

A tree

Somewhere

My common sense

A far off

Memory.

I can

Feel the pain

Grow

Like a serpent

In my

Stomach.

Slithering silently

Squirming stealthily

Coming out only

When it knows to.

I’m so…

Sleep.

Please.

Sleep.

I’m just so messed up.

F**k.