You think you know me

You think you know me but you don't

The only side of me that you ever see is my looks

You don't pay attention to my heart and my deepest desires

You don't see the passion that is overflowing from me about my writing

None of my hidden talents even interest you faintly

I can't believe I'm so stupid and naive to keep wasting my time in you giving a piece of my heart baby


You always fight for the wrong things
even deep down when I know that I'm right
I don't know why I even bother trying


This relationship is always so one sided

People can say what they want about my choices

You are not the same person I once fell in love with you put on a good show for people outside the door of our home

But I'm the one who ensures what goes on behind it closed


You are changing for the worst and I no longer want to play Russian roulette sticking to see the outcome of your senseless actions and behaviors


You are so desensitized to what's important


And the things that should matter to you most never do and that's me & family

I exalt you as high as I do my lord
And I've placed you on a pedestal standing beside you and supporting your every hope and dreams

Keeping you content feeling safe & secured

But not anymore


brave yourself baby

Because I'm done bowing and surrendering to your love

I won't allow you to make me weak in the knees anymore


They say women can't turn off love for their man if they get hurt

But statistics couldn't be more wrong


Buckle up sweet heart

Your life is about to take a turn for the worst it's ever been





I wonder how you will feel once you realize you lost your true best friend


You think you know me
But to me there is more than one side you see

I'm more than just an accessible body

I'm love and light friendship and peace


But you just awoke the devil in me that I fight to keep sleeping.


3;)

Reviews

[Aishwarya Prem]

Amazing piece of work!! Most of the people just judge you based on the exterior, no one is brave enough to explore the inner spark in you!! You r a good writer!! And you will find a person who understands your soul!!

[Farmgirl]

Thank you!!! Aishwarya...


I have someone truthfully of 15 yrs.. I just drift away alot .. And like to pretend that I'm single when he doesn't get me at all lol

But sometimes ... he does... which makes the rest of the times that he doesn't seem smaller somehow...

I love to experiment with my writing alot and stretch it outside the comfort zone of my love sometimes for my significant other that just fails to see the hidden me because he chooses not to feign interest about things I'm passionate of often he did once though lol a very ling time ago in the beginning ! 😂

[Aishwarya Prem]

That's amazing..happy for you!!! You are really good then ;)

[Farmgirl]

Yeah.. ? Thanks ! :)

I see it this way... When I'm dead maybe he will ... lol

[Sami Khalil]

Look deeper and you shall find. Look closer and you shall realize. I lik this a lot. Pen on...:::))))

[Farmgirl]

Thank you Sami !

Do come again :)

[Sami Khalil]

Ok. You are welcome. ....:::))))

[Shabeeh Haider]

Why does the love and spark diminish? Maybe no one has an answer for that but love is definitely more than just beautiful looks.
You have tried your best to keep the spark of love and friendship ignited but it takes two to tango.
Hell hath no fury than a woman scorned.

[Farmgirl]

1st just let me say thanks for visiting ..

I can answer this assertively from my perspective of why the spark leaves its because the other person stopped valuing what's important to the other even if its something small like going out with friends or sitting listening to music having pizza and laughing about stupid things just spending that little bit of time whether it's a self sacrafice or not matters and when things like this go ignored for so long the heart cannot help but to begin to lose love for that person they once admonished and thought highly of and felt strongly about its the little things in this life that matter most to Me & and most women the big things for happiness and contentment come natural & easy with how couples respond in action and behavior but the little things for happiness and contentment and needing feelings of security contentment etc often times are few and far between and too often disregarded so much that deep down you feel you just don't want to place your heart in the hands of your loves anymore because I'm allowing yourself to be vulnerable to what you allow him to control over you makes you weak and predictable and me I like being a mystery I don't like trying to be analyzed and figured out just because I feel a certain way about things so strongly and in my case my husband fails to see that too often and it's becoming annoying lol

I'm not saying I'm leaving I'm really just venting feelings and thoughts creatively here expiermenting new ways to write and express myself
I'm taking my writing into new heights and depth this year



Wish me luck !


Come back anytime :)

[Shabeeh Haider]

I wish you the best. Letting it all out eases the heart and makes it easier to face the coming days.
All the best to you and yours.
I will definitely visit your page again.
Hope to see you on my page sometime.
Stay blessed.

[Farmgirl]

It truly does help healing and overcoming suppressed feelings to me its better to let them out then to hold them in other wise we are just in for more hurt happening in the end I feel it's best to be honest even if that one person doesn't understand or see things the way I most often do we are all unique and how we express ourselves says alot about who we are and the things we wish we could change and the ability to recognize who we don't want to be becomes clearer atleast to me through my writing and I definitely will stop by


Hope to see you again :)

[Coyote Poetry]

To see a honest face of a woman and know her inner secrets and thoughts. A honor for a lucky man.
"I'm more than just an accessible body
I'm love and light friendship and peace
But you just awoke the devil in me that I fight to keep sleeping. "
I understand the above lines. In my lifetime. I befriended many women because I listen. People who see only flesh and bone. Leave their lover feeling empty and alone. A powerful poem dear Poet. You made the reader think.
Coyote

[Farmgirl]

Coyote my dear poetic friend your reviews and visitation is always a blessing to me . I've had alot going on this week with men & life problems that I consider to be very serious I became quite angry today and instead of lashing out on my love about what I obviously have no control over because I'm a sucker for feelings and helping people I decided to place it all here instead of verbally speaking it to him allowed with intent to hurt him it doesn't do well to be angry with my husband I'm learning this I only wish he would fight for me and see that I'm right sometimes and that I shouldn't be disregarded just because I don't have a penis I'm sorry to say that but I feel so discriminated against lately by these 2 Our room mate and his dogs keep trying to kill my dogs and he keeps telling him they can stay when all I want is for them to go because I feel I cannot trust or place my heart into them anymore this is the 7th time one of my pet's have been attacked by these vicious pitbulls

And I feel like since nobody will listen to reason or logic drastic measure should be taken in vallk by the humane society to remove them but ole doormat me for feelings can't bring herself to pull the trigger on this


It's debilitating. ; (

[Coyote Poetry]

I understand your thoughts. No-one want their animals to be harmed. You are right. Stand your ground. A uncontrolled pit-bull can kill animal and human.

[Farmgirl]

Exactly ! I wish you could tell that to the peanut gallery that speaks against me and my views about this lol


Thanks Coyote for validation

And sharing your thoughts on this matter as well

(((Hugs)))

Pray for me

[Coyote Poetry]

I will pray for you my friend.

[Farmgirl]

Thank you .......