Entrapment * Stuck in The Cold of Winter *

I'm stuck in the cold of winter it seems both of my vehicles have quit working


normally this wouldn't be such a big disturbance to me but since I've been stuck here with no Xscape



every little thing keeps annoying me the slightest of noise irritates me


my peace has left me I tried to find solidarity in my reading but every little distraction hinders me from this Happening



it's funny because usually music playing and meditation and praying always works for me I'm so happy and content too usually


Right now though


for some reason I cannot Xscape this feeling of feeling suffocated and wanting to escape this entrapment feeling

though the furnace is going we have to keep turning it off it keeps squeaking it's old and Rusty and needs oiling




being here on the farm has become quite depressing the chill of the winter has taken seven of our chicken babies


the nocturnal Hunters have been taking what's remaining left of this small house farming
And what is still breathing is not egg producing


Oh how I miss going to the coop to gather eggs for making breakfast for everyone


afterwards enjoying early topics of conversation and planning building things



let me not stray away from the important topic of this writing though


oh yes I'm stuck in the cold of winter it seems with nobody to rescue me not even me and all my comforting routines


Now don't get me wrong I love everything about this home


but when you're stuck with in the walls for so long everything else just seems routine and annoying


Especially when everything outside that you usually do to keep you going

is at the moment frozen and unuseful and even broken or breaking


eventually you run out of things to keep you not focusing on that feeling of Entrapment



after a while you begin to miss your church freedom family and friends and nothing you try to be content with can replace any of the things you are currently deprived of lately



It's funny how you begin to miss things more when you don't have access to them any longer



they often say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger but I believe it only makes you go more insane


Who can endure The Lord's chill of these icy winters


not one ....

Especially not when your stuck and feeling



Entrapment daily

Reviews

[Lorry]

Sometimes what we find serenity in can be suffocating when that is the only option left open to us, and what we once delighted in now gives us the cabin fever of wanting to break free and scream wildly, just to break free from the mundanity we find ourselves wrapped in. Even silence can be disturbing when our minds are agitated at the thought of being stuck. We can only sit it out and hope for an early thaw.