The other side of me

I wonder what makes a man love you if he only chooses to embrace one side of you and not the other

The other side of me is deep

  spiritual beyond what anyone could describe about me 

 I'm passionate im Loving I'm a romantic and I'm funny

 I'm outspoken and I love to reach others in my writing

  this isn't me being boastful only merely describing

 what has brought forth this poem of me writing

 The other side of me that my husband refuses to embrace is a war that I'm fighting

  losing miserably because he doesn't want to give that part of his time and heart to me selflessly

 it makes me wonder what is it that he loves about me

 if he only chooses to embrace 1 side of me

 It seems when I strive to include him over convictions of what I'm doing when he thinks I'm just socializing is beyond what he can fathom or think of me negatively

 if only he would embrace this other side of me 

 I want him to know me deeper than he believes he already does

 half the time when I ask him what he knows his only reply is I know enough

 but the truth is that you don't

 you know what I show you the part you see that won you

 but there is more to me than meets the eye

 I'm like layers of a cake sweeter in every bite

im am like a beautiful lightning bug at night that flies above lighting up the night sky 

 And my spirit pierces deeper than the slice of a knife Across a finger once or twice on accident chopping fruits and veggies for you in the kitchen trying to small dice

 each and every bit of me goes deeper than what you see

 so why is it that you just refuse to embrace what I'm trying to include you in greatly

 I'm left wondering why are we married

 am I just for slavery and your amusement

Am i just a trophy for you to do with what you will

 why should I keep giving my all to you when even still I get not 1 selfless moment of your time

 but yet you can sit and conversation with other women about things personally and intimately just fine

 I just don't understand what causes you to reject the other side of me

 it hurts me greatly and makes me feel as if we are incomplete

 You fail to understand a very deeper aspect of me 

 I feel like you don't deserve what I have given to you selflessly

  you wonder why I cheated and remained bitter and angry

 but that part of me is over your selfish way of treating me And I have forgiven everything

 I'm made new

  yet at the hand of your touch or the sound of your voice spoken sternly to me makes me angry at you

 But obediently I bow and jump to your demands off my feet to meet your every need that will appease and satisfy you 

 It was a struggle to submit to one who refuses to give 100% Ill admit to you the truth of self

 just remember i didnt do it for you at 1st 

    You gave me no reason of hope to 

     I had to do it because I am accountable to God in obeying you as your wife 

   Just as you will be for how you treat me as my husband 

   and your refusal to be a part of the deeper me

 You will be left with regrets when I am gone from here NO LONGER BREATHING

Reviews

[Farmgirl]

I most definitely couldn't agree more with you !

And no worries his work will continue in both us
Each and every day we grow together more in depth and spiritually just some days hard to fully connect to each other and positively communicate it is one of our many flesh struggles and flaws in time I'm sure we will be better and come out stronger

Rome wasn't built in a day you know ;-)

[Inject Positivity]

I feel heartbroken reading this... When we can't accept someone's both sides, just love them from mere outside beauty, that love is nowhere close to the real love... When accept both parts of a person that's when love shines, and God makes it more stronger... Believe in our heavenly Father my frnd, He knows what he is doing... You are inspirational...

Sincerely
Dhiman