The corner in my mind where I live

It was hard making it through 11 years of abuse as an young adult even harder come out from my little corner where I lived and protected my emotions and inner self

I crouched down in a corner
As he pointed a gun slowly to my head
"Better keep your mouth shut"
As I silently wished I was already dead

There was no escaping
This madman's grip would never end
It drug on and on forever
There was no one with whom I could depend

Taken from my family at such an early age
Seemed a fun adventure at the time
But then my eyes really opened up
For me it had seemed like a lifetime

A lifetime since I've seen or
Heard from anyone I knew
But this is how he wanted things
I didn't know what else to do

The pain and suffering
Dragged on day in and day out
My mind was starting to shut down
And all I wished for was to check-out

This time my screams were louder
Enough for everyone to hear
No matter that I was hurt
Now just waiting for the cops to appear

They broke down the door
So easily it seemed all a blur
But he had me locked away
Never thinking it would end in failure

As they dragged him out the door
I remember it all too well
I had no remorse
And wished he'd go to hell

Started all over the next day
Even though they broke his hand
I was forever to blame for it all
This was more than I could stand

For me there was no end
No tunnel down the road
This was my fate forever
I would always remain shadowed

Reviews

[Joiedevivre]

this is so sad and i am sorry you had to go through such hell. i hope you are better now, I know these situations create traumas that may never heal, but you are brave to write it and use that energy in a cathartic way. Writing helps in my experience to clear us of hurt. You did a great job with the poem.