Wanting to be numbA Poem by Karen Elizabeth millerThis was the turning point in my abuse I chose to live
She sat on the bed
Not knowing what to do The pain and hurt overwhelming her That is why she was so blue Instead of feeling pain She felt nothing at all Tired of all the emotions She just wanted to fall He ruled her life For so long now he controlled The beatings and the pain To break down her soul She closed herself off So he wouldn't get in Relentless and cruel He seemed to always win Now here she was Tired of this world of pain Tired of all emotions Now she sits in disdain She reaches beside her In a foggy haze Picks up a gun And looks at it with a loving gaze A sense of peace fills her soul She knows what's coming ahead Finding the peace she's been searching for If only she could be dead She puts the gun to her head And hears a loud pop Not sure what it is It makes her stop She feels a little woozy And puts her hand to her head It comes back wet All covered in red She hears a scream Is it from her lips Crawls out the door And then she trips Down the stairs she falls Consciousness coming and going in and out A towel is wrapped around her head Till she finally shouts Get away just let me be You never cared You just wanted To hurt me Shoved into a car She remembers it all How embarrassed she is How he let her fall When she wakes up In a hospital bed She looks around Feeling funny about her head He takes her away From places that would help her out Back to the way it was before Back to the abuse no doubt Something is different this time She has changed on the inside somehow You can do or say all you want Nothing can hurt her now © 2013 Karen Elizabeth millerReviews
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2 Reviews Added on November 8, 2013 Last Updated on November 8, 2013 AuthorKaren Elizabeth millerBoiling springs , PAAboutI survived 11 yrs of abuse now my writing reflects my recovery process. more..Writing
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