Dad

Everything I wanted to say to my father but now I feel it falls on deaf ears

Dad

All I ever wanted
Was to feel your love today
All I ever got from you
Was to push me away

There were so many times
I wanted to spend with you
You ignored my cries
Always to be blue

I was supposed to be a boy
That is what you said to me it's true
You never wanted a girl
Never to say I love you

Times we had together
I felt were all a joke to me
Never to feel I was wanted
Is how it had to be

Now you won't even talk to me
For making choices that day
Not even forgiving me for choosing him
I was too young anyway

I can't control how I feel
Or what you do today
I can't make you love me
Or look at me this way

I can't let you control me
How I feel somehow
I will never stop loving you
Even if you can't right now

I feel better
That I feel this way
Loving myself and loving you
Even though you threw me away

I can move on now
Away from all the bad
I wish you love and peace
It's the best thought I've ever had

There is still that little girl
Wanting to be loved this way
Wanting to be assured
She will never be alone today

Reviews

[TheLoneWriter]

That was very deep and sorrowful and I know that everyone can feel your pain and everyone can take something away from this, I love it! Very well written!

[DaughterNature]

I completely understand (read my poem "To My Dear Mother") -- parents can be so hard. Some of my notes on this are similar to those on your poem "The Beast," if you want it to be a stand-alone poem. If you are having trouble speaking with your father, why not try polishing this poem and send it to him (alone, no note or anything) -- if you find it easiest to express your feelings through writing (and it is nicer, since you can't edit speech), then maybe your writing is the best way to break through with your father. I know what it feels like to lose a father far before I had a chance to learn anything from him -- get yours back if you can -- good luck!

[khalid]

feelings are mixed together when reading this. feelings of pity on a daughter lacking Dad's sympathy, nervous from dad ignoring a part from him, but at the same time, we cant feel bad to the dad since the daughter feels love to him! anyway...this is really very good in presenting the sad emotions!

[Jamie Cook]

Wow. That was very sad :( I know the feeling where the fatherly figure never serves. But oh well, not something we should be sad about, but something we can aspire to :) Great job! ^-^