Bruises

This speaks of a dark time during which I was at the end of a very damaging yearlong abusive relationship.

Bruises

Visible discolorations, signs of bleeding under the skin.

Sick mixtures of black, blue, but not yet the sweet healing tint of yellow.

Maybe not so visible since you didn't leave them on my skin.

Instead you took to my heart

Quickly swiftly wasting no time

And you are not all to blame for the bruises I now live beside

The only blame I'll take is loving you too much

I took the hits as they came, hit after hit, after hit.

Bruise after bruise

Just as one would heal another would form as sick and discolored as before.

This became normal and I grew fond of the strange way you’d hurt me.

Not realizing how toxic and damaging you really were.

I was happy in ignorant bliss

Bliss that  turned into a sick misery oh so soon.

I then got old to you, I wasn’t enough.

Though I drained myself daily to keep you content,  to keep my bubble from rupturing.

I was not enough.

You left me with bruises so deep I felt they would never fully heal.

Only after my bubble shattered and I was left open, raw, and exposed did I see.

How black and blue and desensitized I truly could be.

Here we are as time stops for no soul

And though it has been long the journey is easier.

And these black and blue splotches that deface my heart and soul are slowly turning to a shade of a yellow.

Sweet healing tint of yellow.

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Carolynn]

The bruising of the heart is a very relatable subject for many people and you've described it very well here - I especially like the use of the tint of yellow bringing healing. Bruises can take a long time to heal - and the bruised heart even longer but there is always hope for a brighter tomorrow and the power of positive thinking can certainly encourage the healing tint of yellow to take effect much faster! Thank you for sharing your poetic thoughts :)

[UnapologeticPoet]

Thank you! Positive thinking is key no matter the situation. I'm glad you enjoyed! :D

[Inject Positivity]

Your subject is very relatable to many readers... The pain and the abuse you have encountered filled in each and every line of the poem... I loved the line where you said the only blame you put on yourself is that you loved the person too much, I think it is something we can all agree with you who has faced this kind of pain ever... You put a detailed description of the phase when you were in such struggle... Powerful and very specific word choices which made the poem very catchy and touching...

I pray that you find peace in your heart and live a life without all those scars...

Sincerely
Dhiman

[samarahmed]

great descriptions and drama, made me feel the emotions you put in it, great poem!

[UnapologeticPoet]

Thank you! :D