Miserable Loop

I awake in a rush, pausing briefly I look to my side

Still foggy from my slumber I’m reminded you’re no longer mine

The usual wave of sadness bares it’s weight upon me once again as I attempt to pretend I don’t care

Regardless of our ending I still wish you were there

An empty house, filled with silence

Similar to my broken heart with to much mileage

With each movement I make I feel like a rusty old gate

Almost hearing the metallic creek, I hurry so I’m not late

With no one to see me off, I close the door behind me as I go

No I love you or goodbye kisses to blow

Preset radio stations on a constant revolve avoiding all the songs of love

As if you’re not all I already think of

Anxiety builds the closer I get to work, preparing to adorn my mask that I’m okay

While inside my head replays my emotional ballet

Quickly following each interaction I retreat to my internal sorrow

The same as I did yesterday and the same as I’ll do tomorrow