Innocence Erased

Innocence Erased

Deep down inside I have pain that resides
Left by someone from laws they didn't abide

My life forever altered by their actions
Seeking immoral satisfactions

Four decades plus I've attempted to shut it out
Sometimes a simple song or thought brings those memories about

Ignorant to how I relieve this burden
Tired of hidden hurting

Exhausted asking myself why these things are done
Why me, why was I chosen to be a victim

Relationships affected, thought processes twisted
Who I should have been gone, as If I never existed

I Iive my life in fear, every word and motion I'm cautious
My stomach knots up making me nauseous

My purity spoiled, I was unable to understand
Still confused, I feel as though that's where I still stand

Emotionally stunted, scars run deep
These things eat away at me and make me weak

My wife my safe haven, she builds me up
Fortunate for her love, I finally had some luck

With her by my side, I will be alright
Even those days she holds me and I cry all night

Reviews

[Nisreen]

I totally relate to your words
i wish i had that love support
god knows i need that the most right now

solo

very well done

[Sumo]

Thank you, it's a daily struggle.

[Nisreen]

well
until one day you wake up
and say hey
not today :)

[Sumo]

Or until I find someone professionally to help, lol.

[Nisreen]

For the strong ones
you would need very little
you are capable of so much

[Sumo]

Thank you, I cope well but I feel it there and I believe it hinders me at times

[Nisreen]

We all go through that
just power through