Late Night Pondering.

Every day robots

Reflecting on my past I’m not really sure how I feel. Memories fade in and out of consciousness, their existence questionable.. Maybe imaginative and construed out of ideas I thought of how I lived my childhood. The various experiences from happy to sad made a heavy influence on myself as a person. I always tried to make myself into what people would like. Bouncing around from personality to personality isn’t healthy. I still feel like several different people. I want to please everyone and seem perfect. Give and give and give. Do I give to make them feel good or myself? Maybe both. I feel like I have to atone for all my “sins”. Yet a part of me wants give in and tell the world to f**k off. Be alone. I’m fucked anyways and hell bound. Maybe Satan wants me to be a wingman, my dark humor would give him a kick. I just want to paint and listen to my sad music while I scoff at how pathetic our society is. Then I feel bad because I know its not most peoples fault the media feeds us bullshit, makes us greedy and lazy with western “culture”. Whatever culture is left that is. It seems as though society wants us all to be the same thing. We are all “equal or same” which obviously we aren’t. What is wrong with being different and celebrating the fact we are all unique? When we start labeling each other all as one is when we start to become a statistic. Our government views us as cattle. Slaves. Sheep. Get out of line toss you in jail, mental institutions, or various other places to test on you and tell you why you are a failure to society. We are the tiny cogs in several machines that run this big fucked up factory. Religion gives you rules not morals. Government gives you slavery, not protection. Educational system gives you paper, not knowledge. Media gives you lies, not news. It’s all an illusion: like the matrix. I have already taken the damn pill too, I’m just waiting for it to become the new “trend” so everyone can jump on the bandwagon. It will last a few months of “revolution” and then people will get distracted by a new iPhone or celebrity. It’s all a scheme for us to consume so we are “happy” and distracted from what these fucked up a******s are doing to our planet. Maybe we were meant to be robots. School. Work. School. Work. Slave. Die. It's all for paper.

Author's Note

Just thinking. I don't really want an indepth review on how I am a negative asshole.

Reviews

[Adamya Mody]

i feel the same. i guess so does every other logical person on the planet. Why then are we not able to break out of this monotony. Or is that just it, the purpose of life?