confession.

I'm not so perfect, did you know?
Do you remember every word that you wrote?
'You're perfect and lovely" and you couldn't see
Then you saw I wasn't perfect and perfect wasn't me.

Old scars line my arms and legs
Thoughts of you replaced with thoughts of death
Lyrics sprawled out on the floor
I've sunk so low, even music can't help me anymore.

And I've kept all your poems, our conversations and notes
I've got the disease but no antidote
I'm lovesick, lost and wishing away
Wishing for you, the best part of my day.

I'm trying hard to be thin, so hard to be pretty
To be something better, something that isn't me
'It takes time, it'll pass. Don't worry these feelings won't last"
But I'm mesmerized, captured in the past.

Can you find my heart? Is it still by your side?
I'm lost and I need my heart, my guide
They say follow your heart when the going gets rough
What if your heart's gone? And just you isn't enough.

You can stare out the window
Stare through the haze
But there's nothing you can see
Weeks become days.

Time grows longer, you struggle to breathe
Is this what you wanted to see?
Is the vision all wrong, am I imperfect still?
Because if you need me to change, just know I will.

But I'm falling to pieces, so I hold myself tight
The nights filled with creatures and I'm not alright
You laugh and you smile, you just don't see
What loving you has done to me.

It's been quite a while and I'm yet to heal
Although I'm forgetting how it feels
To not be a slave of cupid, a slave of love
How it feels to be free. To be enough.

How it feels to breathe and not choke on air
I'm stripped down to nothing, my soul lying bare
And the winds whip away all that's left
It pushes me over, leaving me there.

Thin and cut to fragile remains
Reaching out to grasp the falling breeze
My expression pained, hair a mess
I've got a secret, I want to confess.
 

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Star Cross]

Honestly, this is beautiful. It really shows true emotions in this, and I can relate to each and every word of it. You express feelings that everyone can never say out, and if they do they say things that they never meant. However, your words hit the hard point of the poem which gives it its own flare. I hope I'm not confusing you too much, but good job.

[Sapphire.Diamond]

p.s
your mistakes make you perfect in my eyes (L)

[Sapphire.Diamond]

is this about you my dear?