The Life we Lived

Thinking about those days brings a smile on to my face. Wishing for those days to come back, I recap my life during those days.

Walking through those gates early in the morning, gave me the serene feeling of being at home. The walk through those trees, refreshed my senses and prepared me for the day ahead. The sight of young children, playing, not having anything to worry about, never failed to bring a smile onto my face. It was a perfect start to a perfect day.

Turning into the quard, I was greeted by familiar faces. Each person had a different tale to tell, but our time together in this place was limited. Deep down, I knew that we would have to leave, but I just wasn't ready to accept it. I still haven't.

We all have moved on in life, made new friends, created a new world for ourselves, but we all know, that a part of us is still there, waiting for the day we return.

Returning is not an option. One way leads to another, and going back isn't a possibility in the world we live in. The best I can do at the moment is take a trip down in memory lane, and live those beautiful days again.

What wouldn't I give to be back there today? Life was so simple. Life was different. Life was better. Now we live in a web of complications. But every good thing comes to an end. Our lives are no exceptions. So many years in place changes your life in an irreversible way. There is no going back to the place from where we started.
We all expect a huge storm to come our way and create an impact on us. Today sitting in a new city, I realize that all it took was the small things. The small things impacted all our lives in ways we can never imagine. It made us the person we are today.

The difficulty in moving on isn't just leaving the place. It’s about the memories that continue to haunt you. All the places you visit, the people you meet, raise a wave of emotion inside you. You are desperate to see a familiar face in a crowd of unfamiliar people. You know this is your life now, these are your people, but your heart still longs for those whom you have left behind.

I had never believed it possible to stand amidst a crowd of people, and yet be standing all alone. Voices surrounded me, but all I could hear was the sound of loneliness that was drowning me. All I wanted at that moment was to be brought back to life from the memories that I hadn't stopped living in.

And suddenly everything became better. The loneliness dissipated. The memories were there, but just to reminiscence. A bright ray of sunshine had entered my life. She taught me to laugh again, to live again.

Days flew by, and life started moving ahead. I started living again. I admit, it wasn’t the same, but it was getting close. Once again I was among people who filled my life with the colours it had been stripped off not so long ago.

Deep down I know that one day everything would be okay. It wouldn’t be perfect. No.
If life had taught me anything, it was that nothing could ever be perfect. All I could hope for was a day I would be able to finally say that I had truly found peace with myself. To be honest, that day isn’t nearby. I knew it would take me ages before I reached that point in life. But I could wait.

All I needed now was closure. I needed to go back and close that part of my life forever. That chapter of my life’s book will always hold a special place in my heart. But I have long accepted that the pages have turned, and I am now living a new chapter. I no longer yearn for the life that I had lived