I'll never be your girl

There's a baby in the attic
Crying in the storm drain
She's been stuck there 19 years
Watching the water drip down around her
She used to listen to the children
Playing where she'll never be
Tape recordings of butterflies
And memories of a life she'll never live
Keeping her breath still
As the insects want to crawl all over her
And she cries inside every time
Desperatly trying to hide the feelings
Love is a dangerous angel
That she just can't place
She's found ennui and empathy
And lived with hate and abuse
She's found lovely ladies with soft skin
The kinda torture straight love has never known
And she's found a man with devil's eyes
That never understands no as an answer
And she's growing more and more terrified
Of raised hands and loud voices
Because she used to be strong
She used to be fearless and resilliant
Now she cowers, now she hides
She's run out of words to say
And she's tired of the "I love you" game
Tired of being sore and aching
Because she feels like she's breaking
Ripping apart and tripping
Waiting for the ball to drop
Waiting for the curtain to fall
And reveal the truth
That she's never escaped her gutter
She's still trapped in the storm drain
With the maggots and cockroaches
Trying to understand
What makes it change
From friendship to love
And how do you know it's real
And not plastic and celophane
Because if you keep me in this cage
I'll never be your girl...

Reviews

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I felt like the girl who was in the cage was being abused either by a father or a husband, very sad, you can feel the pain that shes went through and all the games of trying to love this person but the person is always angry, very sad poem and beautifully written.