I used to wonder why
My lover died
Maybe it was depression
Maybe I just wasn't right
But why sit and wonder
The past is the past
And I can't change a thing
Her blood is still on my hands
And she'll never come back from the shadows
But she'll always be in my heart
Like wounds full of poison
She can't be removed
But is it fair
To have moved on
I go days without thinking of her
The woman that sliced through my walls
And opened up my heart
Like wrists with a butterfly knife
I have become someone unrecognizeable
To the girl I used to see in the mirror
With black clothes and slit wrists
Am I growing up
Or am I dying inside
Does anyone know
Does it even matter
Slit my throat and watch me cry
As I realize I have to finally say goodbye