i need you tonight

letting it all out

You ruined what we had, why couldn’t you just leave it in the past, as something that once did work, but just didn’t last.

The things you say, the way you act, are all due to an untimely hate, one that results from the un satisfaction of your new reality. You tried to replace it and act like the past five years were never there, you tried to pretend that you just don’t care, because you think that life is unfair. I’m sorry you were hurt and im sorry that it came from me, but I never tried to make you feel pain, as you are doing to me.

You throw it in my face

As if making me sad will make you feel better, and if it does, you were never the person I thought I knew all along. And it only proves that I knew better.  

Why should I falter in my depression like its gonna prove something to you or make you feel something for me. If you cared you’d be back by now.

If you cared would you have said something by now? I care, I haven’t said a word, are you scared? Am I scared? Imagine, the “class couple” too scared to talk to each other. Or maybe reality will set back in and I’ll remember that you’ve moved on and it’s just me with all the feelings. 

Is it pointless for me to even feel upset if you don’t even know…..

I would forget what you said, and tell you that I don’t mean what I said, if you promised not to leave me alone. Because as much as I wanted my independence, I need you tonight, i need to feel like im not on my own.