Back To Zero

The God Of Memories: Chapter 4: Back To Zero

第三単

What is reality? What was my reality? I took a long time looking for an answer but I kept getting the wrong answer, no matter what I do and sacrifice, I always get to the wrong path. I found billions of answer but all of them are wrong. As one last attempt, I had to kill the one who gave me the power to find the answer. I had to do kill her, I want to find the reality I always wanted to find, killing her wasn't enough, I had to throw away all the memories I didn't need. I reached another answer, another reality. It was an orphanage, it looked really fancy, it was a two story mocha colored old type fancy orphanage. When I tried to enter, the lady guarding the orphanage didn't notice me entering.

After looking around all of the room of the orphanage. At the end of the left of the first floor, there was a room that has only one orphan in it. The boy was sitting on a white three sitter sofa and he was talking to a cat stuffed toy. I stared at that one kid for a while, after a while, I realized that kid was me when I was a kid but I had no idea about any memory. I watched the kid play with the cat stuffed toy alone. He looked really lonely and sad. His eyes had lost the light.....he lost the will live.

I watched the kid spend his whole day sitting on the same place and talking to the same cat stuffed toy. He spent the rest of the day like that, he did the same thing the next day and the day after that. He will probably spend the rest of his life doing the same thing, in this very orphanage. I thought that it would take a miracle for him to leave that room and do something different......A miracle that will never happen.

Several days had pass, A miracle had come to that kid's side. While I was watching him do the same thing, I heard footsteps coming closer to the room. It was really light sounding footsteps so I immediately thought that it was a woman, it was probably the lady who gives food to the kid three times a day. I was wrong, the woman that entered the room was a woman with a semi-long black hair. She is wearing a light brown blazer like suit and a brown long skirt. She then approached the kid, the kid noticed the woman but the kid ignored her and went back to talking to his cat stuffed toy.

「Hello, little boy, how are you doing?」
「The same」
「I understand, have you ever thought of doing something else?」
「Never thought of it」
「Hmmmm....Have you ever think of living with a family?」
「Everyone hates me, I don't want to think about having a family......everyone hates me, everyone is afraid of me....because I am different」
「You probably hate me too」
「I think you are cute, you're not scary」
「Really?」
「Yes」The woman reached out her hand toward the kid,
「I want to be your family, I have one daughter and she is wanting to meet you ever since I told that she will have a brother. Do you want to go with me?」She asked the kid,
「Really? Really Really?」The kid dropped his cat stuffed toy and he stretched out both of his hands and wave it in front of him, he was probably looking for the woman's hand. That moment, I realized that this kid was blind. It seemed like the lady knew it so she placed her right hand closer to the kid, to where the kid was able to hold her hand. The moment the kid got hold of the woman's hand. He looked like he just found a treasure, he then slowly placed the woman's hand on his right cheek,
「It's warm....what is your name?」The kid asked the woman,
「fdskjbkcmkさd「p「�'�"えい０�'ｆｆ、ｌｄ�"；ｋｆ�"８�"�-おｊｆ￥「’・。」The name of the woman just sounded static,
「Mom.....」
「Yes, Your new Mom」

The kid broke out a big bright smile, the first I smile I saw him make for these last several days watching him. The kid grabbed the woman's long skirt as he walk outside his room.
「Kuromon....」The kid tugged the woman's skirt to get her attention,
「Is it that cute cat?」
「Kuromon....probably cat」
「Stay here, I'll get Kuromon and give him to you」The woman went back in the room and picked up the cat stuffed toy and gave it back to the kid,
「Thank you...Mom..」
「Let's go home」
「Yeah....Mom!」They then went out of the orphanage, the kid kept on smiling as he look up at the sky.

I guess I need to go back to zero

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「Hey, Alia-san」
「What is it? Kuromon?」
「Can we get a proper food this time?」
「What, are you not satisfied with Fantasy Burger?」
「I may be a Fantasy Creature but if I eat burger for 4 days straight, I will die!」
「Okay, just wait another 58 hours」
「Alia-san! You have been reading the diary for 4 days! You have been neglecting everything except for food! Your friends looked really worried about you!」
「You can cook by yourself, the fridge has everything you need」
「Alia-san! Go back to reality!」
「Oh, sorry, Kuromon, I got carried away. ehehehehehehe」
「Get a grip, Alia-san」

To be continued in Chapter 5: The God Of Memories

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