Even Though I am not a Hero

A boy's life about the girl he loves who likes fairy tales and always wanted her husband to be like a fairy tale like character but the boy is aware that he be can't any of those things.

Even though I don't have a sacred sword
Even though I am not a knight with a shining armor,
Even though I am not the hero you wanted,
I am always with you.

I always match myself to your fantasies,
I eventually forgot which one is real,
You pretend to not see me,
Knowing that I can't be a hero for you.

You wished for a hero with a sacred sword
A knight in a shining armor
And a wonderful Hero.
I can't be all those things,I tried to be it.

I can't match myself to your fantasies
Who is the real me?
You already forgot my existence.
Sorry,I can't be a hero you wished for.

You spend your time with the hero you wished for
I am always watching you from the background
Seeing you happy with the hero you wanted,
It annoys me.I don't have that hero you wished for

I have a demon sword instead of a sacred sword,
I am a knight in blood covered armor instead of a shining armor
I am the demon lord that is fated to kill your hero.
I can't be with you.

I can hear people's voices,crying,
The voices were familiar,
Yeah,the voices of the people I've killed.
Strange,these voices calms me down.

One day,I saw myself at the mirror,
My pure sky blue eyes seems different.
I saw my reflection of the past me,smiling.
I opened my mouth and said,"Who are you?"

© 2014 ❀Subaru_Nyaa!❀

Author's Note

Its hard not to lose your path in life.
Here is an interpretation of my poem,the boy who liked his princess never noticed him even though that he is always there for her.After many years of suffering,the boy lost his path and killed people to occupy his broken heart but eventually,he forget why he was killing people.He is just doing it because he was enjoying it.When he looked at the mirror he saw the past him,he didn't know who it was even though it was him,so he said "Who are you?" because he already forgot who he was.
He is the fourth Person who supported the Banquet of Darkness along with Kuroha,Haru and Mashiro