3 AM

Dark thoughts
They invade my mind
Take over my body
And sicken my soul
I push, shove, fight
Not letting them in to haunt me
But I’m caught
Fading in and out of misery
There’s screaming and yelling
Hate, pure hate
Clouding the air around me
Trapping me
No, I can’t let them catch me
I fight
But they fight back just as hard
Creeping their way into my mind
I can’t let them control me
Not anymore
I can’t let them define me
Not anymore
Suddenly, I feel warmth
I feel your skin
Your touch
Your love
It pushes back against the darkness
Freeing my mind, body, and soul
Slowly it saves me
From my pain
The shaking in my hands
The spinning room
The sweating
It all stops
Because for a split second
It was just you and me
In this bed
Together
And I know I will be ok
Because that split second
When I imagine you here with me
Is what saves me every time
Brings me back to life
As I lay, alone and helpless
At 3 AM