It wasn't me

A Poem by MinorArt

I take over my own life and can't even blend in

Another swing
And then I see
Muddy reflections of someone
Bleak
Along transparent lengths of a glass bottle
Long dark hair
Red lips
Red nails
Charcoal eyes
White skin
Lifeless, cold
Bones
She looks just like me
She doesn't do anything like me
If she doesn't do anything like me
Why do you keep telling me she is me
Dont liken me to monsters that roam my earth when I'm asleep
Demons that leave my life in post apocalypse when they flee
Hiding in dirt filled creases
In trails of my self I cannot keep protected from thieves
That come in the night and burn my bridges
Spilling venom from my tongue in a voice that sounds just like mine
But it isn't me
The girl with flaming, glazed faces of people I could never be
She isn't me
Don't assign me tears that don't belong to me
Those screams never came from me
The violence: fluorescent; ugly
She pried it from places In my heart that never nested those vices
I don't know where she found them
But she cloaked them in me
It wasn't me
I told you it wasn't me
Scrape 'I told you so' across all my apologies because you can never say I didn't warn you loud enough
I needed you to see me
But you never listened
You still think she's me
The girl: inept, hysteric
The mistake
My monster
She doesn't hide under my bed
She walks over my life like she owns the place
I'm hiding from her but she keeps finding me
Melting into me, forcefully
She isn't me
Yet, in the wake of her destruction
I'm alone, standing in the middle
With all the fingers pointing
At me
Blaming me
I try to pick up all the pieces and fix things
Everything
But after last she came to life
Some pieces went missing
I can't stick things back together
I don't where she put them
I remember nothing
If I could just find them I know I could fix this
Can you help me find them?
...
Can you?
Hey, talk to me
Hello?