A cantankerous writer

A cantankerous writer

A Story by Usman Muhammad
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Sometimes you are not a writer but just trying to be one

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Writing a book is not that simple, it takes courage to write a book. Writing a book means you yourself become void and hollow. You put every thought, emotion, feeling, instinct, experience on  a few lines of paper. To me it is an act of suffering. Sometimes your pen follows you and sometimes it ceases to reveal your undetermined emotions. Writing means becoming a criminal in your mind where your thoughts haunt you, where fear gets you every time, where your imagination falls into an endless limbo without aiming to touch the ground.
  My question which I ask myself many times is why do I write? When writing something haunts me so badly. Why do I feel voidness in my soul? When I can't feed lines with proper words. Why do I cry? When I feel I can't write anything anymore. When they(critics) say writing is an art which only few possess, I ask them how? I want to tell them it is neither an art nor it is some talent, it is just a simple way to express your regret which has haunted you throughout your life. Regret is that compelling instinct which fills soul in the writing. To me writer is one who is unsuccessful in his life. When a writer can't achieve anything in his life he writes inspirational books. When he can't settle his life affairs, he writes fiction so that he can reason himself. When he wishes to master the nature and fails, he writes poetry. Hence writer lives in a universe where everything is followed by failures.
  Despite all this, sometimes when I am alone I think of becoming a great writer who is respected everywhere he goes, and for achieving it I had to be good at failures because failure represent how good I am at writing and how far can I go in this small universe of writers. I want to feel that pain which will help me to stray away from the norms of so called "modern society" so that I an always look at them with hate and hostility. So that I can deliver them the same pain with my feelings such that they will respect me just to keep themselves away from me. Only then I will be able to write what they call
"Writing".

© 2016 Usman Muhammad


Author's Note

Usman Muhammad
Important note : This story is about a writer who is upset with the world not about me. And just because this writer is upset he sees things with hatred because he thinks these people are responsible for his failures and tries to write against them which make him a great write because now he is not writing he is expressing his feelings which are much more power than mere words.
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I for one am glad you decided to be vulnerable and put your true thoughts on paper. The human condition is messy at times; chaotic, difficult- etc, etc,. I needed the inspiration that I am not the only one who ever had doubts about my motivation, goals or dreams. Keep up the good work; your on the right track. I am a very newbie writer with just three poems so you are to me a great success.

Posted 8 Years Ago


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You are what they call a marketer, not a writer.

Posted 8 Years Ago


Usman Muhammad

8 Years Ago

That is good for me , at least i will learn to write something value able worth of marketing
A nice story.....every writer goes through this phase but writing is like letting go of every kind of pain and sorrow, laughter and ecstasy and all kinds of feelings through words.....a writer does face a tough time ...facing critics and yet , no one should stop writing. A nice piece and well written.

Posted 8 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Usman Muhammad

8 Years Ago

Thankyou Patricia for your kind review
I feel this way all the time - wondering why I write, writing things that betray my beliefs and views, finally putting down words that when read, can make me hurt all over again. I really like this piece :)

Posted 8 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Usman Muhammad

8 Years Ago

ThankYou Nicole ..we all share same thoughts
I'm sorry, while I'm sure the concept of this is great, I have a hard time reading through it. It's just kinda choppy. And I hate to be a grammar Nazi, but the fact that all the 'i''s are lowercase really catches me and makes me less immersed in the actual telling. I'm sure with time you will get better with this, so please keep on writing.

Posted 8 Years Ago


• When they(critics) say writing is an art which only few possess,

Forgetting that I've not seen a critic say that, it's bullshit. I'll let a few writers speak for me:
• “It’s none of their business that you have to learn how to write. Let them think you were born that way.”
~Ernest Hemingway
• “Self-expression without craft is for toddlers.”
~Rosanne Cash
• “There’s no such thing as a born writer. It’s a skill you’ve got to learn, just like learning how to be a bricklayer or a carpenter.”
~ Larry Brown
• Literature flourishes best when it is half a trade and half an art.
~ William Ralph Inge

Writing is an art, but only if the artist knows how to use the tools of the profession. You can improve a tool. You can consciously ignore a tool. But you cannot use the tool you don't know exists. As Mark Twain observed, “It ain’t what you don’t know that gets you into trouble. It’s what you know for sure that just ain’t so.”

A talent for writing means only that once trained it may prove useful. But you will never learn if have talent in great or tiny amounts till you train it. And that training comes from study and practice, not some magical gift. I strongly suggest you read the excerpt from Dwight Swain's, Techniques of the Selling Writer, for a better understanding of what's involved.

You spoke of how the story you write moves you emotionally, and how you wanted the reader to feel the same way. The problem is that because you know the story intimately, including all the character's backgrounds and intent, it works, no matter how good or bad the writing is. And because you do you, if you're like most hopeful writers you tend to focus on making the reader know what happens—story, in other words.

But the reader isn't interested in the events. They want to know what the protagonist intends to do as-a-result-of-the-events. they're seeking to live the story in real time. So our goal isn't to make them know, it's to make them feel as the protagonist does, need what they need, and, and know the situation and people as your protagonist does.

This article may clarify why we need to make the reader know the situation that way:
https://jaygreenstein.wordpress.com/2015/05/13/inside-out-the-grumpy-writing-coach/

• So that i can deliver them the same pain with my feelings

No reader cares about your feelings. They're seeking to be entertained by being made to feel. Suppose you read a horror book. Do you care how the writer feels? Do you read to learn that the protagonist is frightened? Or are you hoping that the writing terrify YOU?

Your primary goal is to give your reader an emotional experience. And the more intense the better they like it. A reader is never happier than when they stop reading, filled with shock and saying, "Oh no...now what do we do?"

And learning HOW to accomplish it is the first step toward doing it.

Hang in there, and keep on writing.

Posted 8 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Usman Muhammad

8 Years Ago

Sir if you read Author's note i hope your point of view will change
JayG

8 Years Ago

I read it. But your intent is irrelevant, because intent never makes it past the keyboard. All the r.. read more
Usman Muhammad

8 Years Ago

Thanks for your review , i believe that every writer has not same story, no author shares the histor.. read more
an interesting auto biography of this fictional writer. his views are obscured from his hatred cos some writers are successful and writing is very hard to appease the audience, the readers and to get a foot in the door with publishers. i like the narrative take on this . nice work.

Posted 8 Years Ago


Wow. I love how this is a different point of view from whats "regular". Its unique, its new, its you. Writing is having a voice and writing what you think, despite popular belief, is using the voice you have. Well done!! Keep writing cause you are amazing!!!!!!!

Posted 8 Years Ago


I like the emotion you put in the texts and how it all flows nicely. Keep writing my friend.

Posted 8 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Usman Muhammad

8 Years Ago

Thank you.
Wow, this is really good :) please keep writing :)

Posted 8 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Usman Muhammad

8 Years Ago

Thanks Rosaliine.....with help of people like you i will try my best
Rosaliine

8 Years Ago

Good, I look forward to it :)
Loving the imagery, Usman! The questions the writer is asking themselves are very thought-provoking and as a writer, it makes me ask myself the same questions. For being the first story that you've written in English, it's very interesting and very well written! As you practice your written English more and more, you'll find that the punctuation and grammar side of things will come to you easier. English is an incredibly difficult language for a non-native speaker to learn so seriously, Kudos to you for your first attempt! I look forward to reading more :)

Posted 8 Years Ago


Usman Muhammad

8 Years Ago

Thanks for your encouragement and yes English in terms of grammar is a difficult language
Rhia Barton

8 Years Ago

Don't worry though, you'll get better at it and soon it'll be second nature! You're doing great :)

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Added on April 8, 2016
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