I Once Knew Love

I remember how it once felt to have a man hold me in his arms.

How it felt to have his fingers run through my hair until I finally closed my eyes,

escaping to a place where he would also meet me in my dreams.

 

I remember how it felt to awaken to see the things most valuable in life,

laying by my side not far from the touch.

The way his scent lingered in the sheets,

the deepest inhale reciting my mind of his existence.

 

I remember how it felt to go that extra distance for something as simple as a smile.

At that exact moment, I knew he was free of all other worries; knew I was doing my part.

With the smile came the sensation of feeling wanted.

Feeling..... wanted.

 

I remember struggling to make ends meet, just to assure he was able to eat;

Nurturing him as I would a child I carried within the womb.

He was my sun; I was his earth.

 

I remember being choked until I was unable to breathe.

Being held against my will when I knew it was time to leave.

The way it sounded when glass shattered against the wall;

how it felt walking upon each splinter as it cut into the ball of my feet.

 

I remember how it felt to be complete as I hid each bruise,

knowing the hands of time would soon make this a moment of the past.

How it felt not to talk because my jaw was locked,

never longing for medical attention to bring what I believed to be,

negative attention.

It was my responsiblity to protect him from harm.

Ironic.

 

The scent of the sheet soon brought nightmares.

The fingers in my hair now brought pain.

I longed to see him leave to be left alone.

The mirror no longer revealed an image I admired.

 

I once knew love.......

Love never knew me.

 

Reviews

[Walkingblind]

Every poem you post is so wise they make me want to be
a walking encyclopedia. This one has such emotion in it
it makes me want to do more then thrive. I've grown up with
women who've been hurt by the one they loved, but still I
never understood how they felt until know. Your a strong
woman I'm so happy that this is over now, but the long term
effects must tear you up. Be blessed Li Li or Alicia.

[Doctor Deathstab]

Caring for a person can have a profound impact on somebody, whether negative or positive. It's very hard to forget someone you've dedicated time and emotion to, no matter how long ago it was. I still have faces that haunt me down to this day, and I was able to relate to the words you wrote and the picture you portray. Peace.

[Brjden (Bridge-Den) Cre..]

Very wise and old spirited. It makes me remember with my own memories, what love felt like. This poem had me thinking even after I finished. I read it, then before I typed my review, I sat back in my chair and remembered. You paint an incredible picture with words and I loved it. Very descriptive and heartfelt. Snapping my fingers in applause........

[WayzWithWordz]

OKAY OKAY!!! i see you, i feel you...that was deep. i wanna say thank you for taking me on that journey with you i felt like a spirit in that troubled household i saw it all
you got a fan in me
i am off to read the next
GONE

[BEEGE]

WHOA!!!
That is crazy!!! I'm
seriously at a loss for words right now.
I hate that you had to endure that because no one
should. But, I'm sure you are soo much stronger now
than before which may be a part of HIS plan. This was an amazing
write. As the story you depicted here went on, I was hoping for a happy ending.
The ending given fit so well, but not as good as I hoped.
Good job here youngn!

Beege

[bluessadmood]

Nurturing him as I would a child I carried within the womb.
He was my sun; I was his earth.
The scent of the sheet soon brought nightmares.
The fingers in my hair now brought pain.
I longed to see him leave to be left alone.
The mirror no longer revealed an image I admired.
I once knew love.......
Love never knew me.
its sad ,i could see a happy beginning where the sheaths smelled of him ,his fingers running your hair,then came your trying to please him and its always hard and again your trying to get away cause you knew its time to leave ,only then it became violent ,the black eyes ,the broken jaw the humility,the brutality
and your confession that you knew love ,only love never knew you ,what sweet words ,its like a lovely story but you tell it so good ,i just loved this,wonderful

[Melon Choly]

This is beautiful in a horrorfying sort of way. I feel the pain, you've done an excellent job of pulling the emotion out of me with your words!

[Seriana]

OMG....I'm speechless. This is terribly heart-wrenching. It was so beautiful in the beginning, so many things you noticed, did, then slam! It all ends like that shattering of the glass that was mentioned. What a ride on the continuum of love that we force ourselves to believe. Truly a powerful poem.

[beancountersar]

Powerful twist to what was once a beautiful scene. The memories tied to what normally would be pleasant turned hideous. I am sorry for the experience described.

Very nice poem! Tremendous.

[Orlando Murcia]

Wow very moving
and sad with an embrace
of past that in a way that seems
to not be left alone

Great write

Orlando Murcia