Friendships and teenage struggles

A short story of myself talking about some of the very few struggles I go through after stepping into my teenage life.

Part 1
Once upon a time... and they lived happily ever after! Have you ever wondered if you were ever going to get this happily ever after ending, well I certainly did. People always tell you that when you reach your teenage years it will be your worst nightmare, but once you pass the test of being the pretty/handsome, calm, cool, and productive student then great job, you are eligible to be an adult. I know for a fact that we have to put up with so many expectations and be perfect, but in reality, we are actually not even one bit close to being THE PERFECT ONE and it's fine because it's our life, I wouldn't call it short or long but it's ours. I'm not saying you should be completely against your parents and fight for what's wrong but make them understand how you feel. In the middle, you may be caught up in strings where they grow into thick ropes but don't worry because you'll eventually break through it. You might also lose people in the process, sometimes the ones really close to you but I guarantee that you'll find amazing people in the future. How about I talk about my story, once upon a time...

I was never excited to be a grownup because I loved my childhood and always wished to stay young but obviously, we had to grow up and in the process, you also have to accept change in yourself and others who are dear to you which is very complicated. Even though we never want them to change, we have to accept the reality that they won't be like how they were before. My best friend and I were really close at the start but as we grew I built an invisible wall in between because I realized so much, she was never open with me, and turns out she even spread false rumors about me so instead of confronting her I just drew a line, she even hid from me that she was dating a boy until the boy himself sent a screenshot of her saying '' I love you.'' One of the biggest mistakes I made was not confronting her, we've had our differences but it was her who always made it work, and not all the time you see us talking to each other, hugging, etc because more than that, we avoid and ignore each other. Our last fight was the biggest of all, it was that I hid something which I clearly hadn't done but here I am unable to forget all the memories I've had with her. All my friends loved us being together and everyone felt very upset each time we avoided each other but now I guess it's finally time to draw a line between us. She's not ready to listen to me so I can't explain but I said sorry so that I wouldn't feel guilty that I didn't say anything so that I could finally convince myself but I can't because I know I love her so very much and I wish we hadn't grown apart and too be like this. The bond we had was so memorable but I've come to a point that maybe we aren't meant to be, I know I can't come to a conclusion fast but when I look back at how we were, all I can see is hatred, annoyance, and obdurate that we won't change, than love but all I expect is for the love to last because you can't find any friendship without having hatred against each other but in this fight she even brought the past to the present life which hurts me the most that she still hasn't forgiven me for what I did back then, to be honest I don't think I have as well. Even if I was a jerk back then and more of a jerk now, I'm ready to change for her but she isn't. On the other hand, I lost my good relationship with my father which is even more heartbreaking because my daughter hates their father but because of the CHANGE, we experienced a lot of difficult moments. The father-daughter bond is more precious than any other bond in this world but it isn't like that in my case although we've tried to sort things out it ends up getting worse, but I know that my dad doesn't hate me, he always finds ways to make me happy because I am his princess, I just wish we could have more conversations, but each one we have ends up in a terrible fight. I was brought up very differently than even my younger cousins from the same family, I'm the oldest from both sides of the family and the most responsible one out of all, but I always asked myself why I should torture myself just to be everyone's favorite when in reality even my dad is not in good terms with me. In school I'm very famous for going behind people even if they insult me I would always be the first to say sorry and the first to help everyone out but in the end I feel always left alone at some point. I'm the only child so I'm always alone at home but I'd change myself outside so that I can get along with people but I'm afraid when people see the true me they wouldn't want to be my friend anymore, although it doesn't have much of a difference one habit that projects 'bad' to them can turn the whole upside down. I'm sorry if this doesn't have any flow to it but I just have so much to say.

Love is very dangerous, you can get hurt when you love someone so much and they just backstab you in the heart, but even though they feel that what they did was right and maybe it will help us in some way we still can't accept the fact they backstabbed us but let me tell you " the ultimate betrayal is not when someone else lets you down, but when you let yourself down by betraying your own values." I know life is going to be tough as you go but never ever forget where you came from and all the good values you have because you'll end up going to the place you belong eventually because that place can only be called the "perfect home." You don't have to change yourself for anyone because I'm sure you'll find people who accept you because of you and all you have to do is wait patiently whether it's the right friend, life partner, or even teacher but never even change yourself and I'm telling this out of experience. People often question me how I speak so maturely at the age of 15. However, through my life experiences and struggles I've shaped my emotions and perspectives and interpretations of how I see things. Don't worry I'm quite childish as well! 

I'm not going into much detail but all I want to say to you is it's fine because I can't promise you that you will or not lose your best friend, family member, or anyone close to you but what I can say is that don't feel guilty that you hadn't done anything to get them back especially if you've made the mistake. You can face the lowest low without doing anything or achieve and stand at the top of the food chain but either way, you have to make a lot of sacrifices.

Author's Note

Hey guys! I hope this helped you, just know that I understand whatever you are going through and I'll support you in each step but just trust yourself and the process of becoming a better person! Thank you...
Once again I'm sorry if the story has no flow to it but I'll be releasing part 2 very soon so please stay updated!