The One I Hate to Love

She's a fall back. The girl that will always be there and the one he always goes back to. She can't tell if he's sincere or not. So she decides not.

I create beautiful scenarios in my head of all the things that I want to say to your face.  I imagine what you would say to me and the facial expressions you would make. I imagine your touch and how my skin would crawl from my disgust with you… but do I ever do it?

No.

Instead, I sit and smile. I nod my head and give you hugs. I make jokes and laugh with you. My skin tingles from your touch and I want nothing more than to be with you. Just you and me alone for a day to discuss our deepest secrets hidden in the furthest corner from reality in our hearts…. But does it happen?

No.

You’re my friend. You’re a flirt. You’re a tease. You’re my best friend. You’ve confused me. You’ve used me over and over again and you don’t even know it. You’ve fixed me, only to break me again. You’ve arrived. And now you’re leaving.

Stay gone.

Stay away.

Become a memory that will fade over time.

Leave the piece of me you took behind. And take what I have of you.

The torture of time is cruel, but I think I could handle that.

But I don’t think I could handle your false friendship, your empty hugs, and your hallow I love you’s any longer.  

Author's Note

Anything that needs to be added? Any opinions? I'm curious.