The pain

This is just what's flowing through me right now...

The pain...
It feels like a knife to the heart,
A spear in your back,
An arrow to your very soul,
To hear those words,
The utter break-up,
You fight to get them back,
But you don't what to say,
Whatever you say they just brush away and keep going,
You promised to love them,
Now their walking away from your love,
You try to forget but to no prevail,
You sit around sinking into depression,
Just thinking,
"why'd you leave?"
"where'd you go?"
"do you know what you're doing to me now?"
Screaming "I still love you!!!" hoping they'll hear
But you know its no use,
If only you could make your heart stop loving that someone,
How much easier would losing someone be?
Would there still be the pain?
Even if it was possible,
There would still be the loss,
The one you love would still be slipping through your fingers,
They would still be growing farther and farther from you,
You said you would die for their love,
Now you think of the consequences,
Shakespeare's words run through your head,
"to be or not to be",
The same question Hamlet once asked,
You think to yourself,
"life isnt worth living without them",
But something's keeping you from ending it all,
You step back,
take a deep breath,
think it through,
The pain is still there,
Not an ounce of the pressure has eased,
You try to live life,
Go out to the mall with friends,
but You cant stop seeing that person,
You run up to people who look like them to see if its them,
But of course it is not,
Then every once in a while you see the person,
You act like everything is fine,
But you know on the inside you're dieing,
You're dieing to be with them,
Dieing to love them,
Dieing to see them smile,
Dieing to just to get them to notice you,
The person you were with them is not the same person you are without them,
You have changed,
They have changed you,
All because of pain,
All because what used to be love...

Author's Note

Sorry if i spelled anything wrong or misplaced or missed and puncuation.