Emotion

That running love

I miss you, I need you, and I love you. Yet I cry because of you, want to know why? It's because you made me feel so in love and without a doubt I was in love with you. In love with your personality, your physical, and your emotions. I fell most in love with your emotions, because they matched my own, and together they'd run away and play with each other to feel something new. That new feeling always returned to us, or at least to me and made me fall in love with you even more than before. Emotion was always my friend when I was with you, but know it's my worst fear, because it keeps asking to play with with your emotion. That terrifies me every time, and every time he asks with a more desperate tone until it screams your name making me cry in fear. Fear that leaves me crying like a kid that just saw his best friend die right in front of him. Emotion never sleeps because he just wants to play and play, and since yours is no longer there, he just wanders around sobbing, wondering where his friend is. He sobs and sobs until he can't sob any more and gives out. Emotion is my friend so I worry for him. I don't know what to do so I ask for help from those I call friends, they only console emotion for a bit before he begins to sob again. Once again he gives out but not before asking where his friend went. I am so tired of hearing him cry that I just tell him the truth. I tell him " emotion don't cry, for your friend did not die, he only went away to find another one to play," that is the truth and then I begin to cry beautifully, it feels so good to cry. I cry and cry until memories of you are washed away and out of mind. There see what you've done, what you made of me, how you ruined me and my emotion and just how you entered my life you deleted yourself from it. Was it love you felt?Exitement maybe? Or was it just desperation to find someone to love? What ever it was I am happy you chose me and my emotion to go and f**k up, because in the end you made me feel something new. That was all I ever wanted to get a feeling from you, a sign, a memory, and a friend. One to count on to be there when ever I needed him. I guess that's not what you wanted, because you just ran away with that other girls emotion and played with hers instead. You didn't even say good bye, you just wrote to me about wanting to die. Now I see you much more alive, and full of life, damm what a lie. I can see right through it and it's so precious that it keeps blinding me even more that it hurts to know that you can't see that. Now that you see what you have done do you even give a f**k? I hope you do because my tears are worth all of what I just wrote. My emotion wants to play, hear it yell "hurray" as he knows you have read this. I now wait for your love or for at least your friendship, you say we're friends but I want you to show me to be real friends, so please stop running away. I miss you, need you, and love you.