My Lesson

I've gone through a bit emotionally, some physically, through highschool and middleschool and thought I would post the lessons that I've learned here.

My Lesson:

For the amounts of times I have been hurt, lied to, backstabbed, betrayed, or led into some fictional state of belief which contains denial and sorrow, it would be hard for me to count. Even though it seems that others have hurt me more then helped me, I’ve come to find myself caring for others then I happen to care for myself. I’ve been told that this is a bad thing, I’ve have been told it is a good thing. But it is hard to perceive what one can consider good and bad when society has bent us one way in a path that we as people presumably must follow. I happen to look at it not as a good or bad but mainly through my own eyes. For instance, I have developed caring for others more than myself out of my sensitivity. Note that I do not recognize sensitivity as a good or bad, however society does depending of the person. Which this really bends on to my first point in life: don’t let society rule you, but don’t be the one to rule society, be the one to make a path off of it, and call it your own. We wake up in the morning stressing about certain things such as “do I look good this morning?” or “what should I wear?” It’s hypocritical of me to say “ignore such bullshit and do what you want” for I as well wake up in the morning and think such things. BUT, we answer such question not from a perspective of self, but a perspective of which we think others will judge upon us. I challenge you to get up in the morning and instead of thinking “do I look good this morning?” think “I look good this morning.” Or instead of saying “what should I wear this morning?” think “What do I want to wear this morning?” This sort of leads me into my next second point in life which is your confidence. NEVER, underestimate yourself. It leads to the sort of depression and under-confidence I have managed to contain over myself at this moment. You find yourself constantly undermining yourself saying “I can’t do that.” or “I can’t do this.” Say “I can.” and “I will.” However, don’t take my advice as the sort of s**t that will make you become overzealous or overconfident for that such of attitude is one of which I have come to despise because it’s a way that makes kids become like me because they can’t get themselves to believe they could be anything close to the “perfection” that is you. If you think you know you me, you may see me as a quiet kid who keeps to himself. From a bias perspective that is how you’ll see me. Some may see me as an a*****e or prick that is generally serious. Both from my individual perspective are wrong. When you truly get to know me, and I mean know me, not talk to me here and there and your basic assumption which you find correct. You’ll find me as an open hearted to the ones I love, sensitive, yet defensive person. Which leads me to my third and final lesson in life: always have an open heart. By allowing yourself to have an open heart you tend to not only let people into your life easier but you come off more as a friendly figure and people will generally go to you more if you so desire. I keep a closed heart. Not for the reason is that I don’t like people to an extent but I have been hurt too much and have heavy trust issues to let people close into my life. But it is a burden to hold such a thing. Let people into your life, let them learn who the true you is, express yourself, be you. As a last sort of tip if you call it, be logical. Don’t let bias, sorted opinions, gossip without facts lead how you are for you become unreasonable and seek to win your arguments out of mere expression of feelings and emotions which weaken your argument by not listing your facts, but your bias. The things I have learned, I learned them in the period of time that I began middle school and not much has changed about me. But please, if you are going to take anything away from any of this, just remember to be you, appreciate yourself. Your confidence is where you’ll find the center of your happiness from my experiences and if most of you can relate, that’s where you’ll find your happiness comes from too.